I just attended a wake yesterday... deaths are occurring, people are leaving... in fact, this was the 2nd death I heard along the week.. to b Honest & frank, I dont know what they are going thru... I m upset tt they lost someone so dear to them yet I can never fully understand what they are going thru & how they are feeling... You see, when was the last time I attended a wake of someone dear to me---it was like I was in my Pri 1 or 2 ?? My Father's Father aka Granddad passed away all I remembered was running around his coffin =X It sounds ridiculous yar... but pardon me, I did not know much back then..On top of the 2 news I received, my dear bro told me tt one of my junior got himself into serious accident.. I think broke his arm ba =S and he told me tt another gal passed away (I gona admit tt I dnt hv much impression of her)..Gosh, so many of such things...is God tryin to tell me something???!!!
As I was at my kitchen pouring water to drink, I pondered over this again...Joa, do u want to wait till such thing happens then u regret for not treasuring the people ard u? this struck me esp in regard to my Mom.hey, when this Qn popped into my mind, it seems as if all the Cold Wars, Arguments can be dissolved if I Humble myself to tk the first step to talk to her…if this Qn has not appear, I will still b indifferent & Ai Mian Zi ba.. hahaz, I think I am quite like my mom.. We Will Nvr tk the 1st step to Give in... Die die also want face =Xthus, I feel tt it will b the ultimate humility if I were to say I am the worst Daughter in the whole world to her... Wah! like Paul in 1Tim 1:15 it requires Great humility!!Okie la, God, u convict my heart yar to go humble before her.. I can say tt it is like wantin my life la...haha..I can NEVER do it in my own flesh & strength..so thus, I nd God to break me & gv me tt boldness to go forth and settle this issue....Seeing the bigger picture, I want to see her knowing God & see her save by the blood of the lamb...If she can b praying, burning to incense to XXXXXXXX (I duno who), faithfully everyday...I Must b more diligent to pray for this woman to the TRUE God I know & I have!!!Cant stand her.. hahaz.Ultimately, I want to know tt I hv done my best while she is still alive & kicking.. being a Guai & Filial Daughter to her then to cry cry cry knowing tt she is gone & I hv nvr do my part...
