yeah!
am back to blog.
muahahahax.
anyway, wanna thank God for today!
it's awesome!
Cheryl got BAPTISED 2 hours ago!
Praise God!
kekex.
i'm waiting for mine!
Hallelujah!

anyway,
Cheryl's baptism name is Isabel eh?
Isabel means "devoted to GOD" in spanish.
yups.
hehex.
and i think the word "bel" means pretty.
yes!
she's pretty!
hohoho.

anyway,
when they are standing on the stage,
pastor said something like,
"they will each say what JESUS means to them."
yup.
hehex.
cheryl said that JESUS is her EVERYTHING!
Praise GOD! ;))
hehex.

what about you?
what is JESUS to you?
do you have an answer?
if you don't have,
you better check your heart!

i have my anwer.
JESUS is my eternal BOYFRIEND!
kekex.
a Boyfriend who i believe and trust in,
AND,
someONE who i can lean on to.
hohoho.
i dunno how to say.
but seriously,
i live by this.
live by HIS truth,
HIS word.
Proverbs 3:5-6,
this two verses are very close to my heart.
ya?
hehes.
ya lo ya lo.

yups yups.
during worship,
God spoke to me.

"Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come"

HE made me understand.
my heart is healed after it.
Thank God!
and paise God!

despite the fact that i'm sick,
i did not let it stop me from worshipping GOD.
i felt so energetic during worship!
it's as if i'm not sick at all.
hohoho.

the very first part of the song spoke to me alot.
"Before the world began, You were on His mind"
tells me or in fact,
affirmed me that i am in HIS plan.
i am NOT born unintentionally.
must be thinking why i am saying this huh?
hahas.
cos' my second bro came back from NS.
as in he had finished his NS.
ya?
so, he's back at home lo.
am very happy for him.
but on the other hand,
i hope that he will always be at NS.
hahas.
why?
cos' he's like a king in the family lor.
my mother everything also do for him.
he talk back to my mother,
my mother also dun mind.
yes,
i am jealous.
because i dun have such privilege.
privilege as in can talk back to her
or do everything for me.
but talking to me NICELY.
so,
actually,
i had problems with my mother.
because i don't understand why she can talk so nicely to my brother,
but not me.
i felt so unfair,
so bias of her.
i hate her. i hate the family,
i told myself.
but after today's worship session,
i felt renewed.
as i look back,
i realise my mistake.
actually,
i was sounded harsh when i talk to my mother too.
hohoho.
ya lo.

kekex.
"And every tear you cry, Is precious in His eyes"
hahas.
i dunno what it means.
to it sounded to me that GOD seems to be telling me that
when one repents from the bottom of his/her heart,
every tears that he/she had shed,
meant alot to GOD.
for HE and HIS angels in heaven rejoices!
this is the one that touches me most!
didn't realise that the tears that we shed,
is precious to GOD!
am thankful for this.
Praise the Lord God in Heaven!

"Because of His great loveHe gave His only Son"
yes.
indeed.
it is only by HIS grace,
that we are saved.
GOD sent JESUS not to be served but to SERVE.
Job is often cited as an Old Testament picture of Jesus Christ,
who lived perfectly innocent life but endured great pain and death.
However,
in the New Testament,
God sent HIS one and only son, JESUS CHRIST,
who suffered a greated pain,
to die for our sins and shame,
so that we can be saved.
the terrible event of CHRIST's death was also transformed into a great victory.

as for the last part of the song, i dunno what it means.
seem so mysterious.
hahax.
ya lo ya lo.

actually i learnt one more thing today!
but the medicine that i took made me drowsy.
gonna sleep!
hahax.
thanks for all of your prayers!

jessica.