It has been coming to the end of the final term in sch and I have been teaching for about coming to 3 months. Throughout these months, it has been really an eye opener for me into the working world. I guess it is either me not actively finding out more of how is it like out there in the real world in the past, if not I just did not want to come to accept reality then that I have to start working. Well whatever it is, Yes, when you have to start working, means you have to start working... cant deny that fact. Haha.. just like when your exams are coming, you have to study means you have to study. I guess in teaching, we are still much more sheltered in a way, what happens very much is within the school.
Anyway why am I sharing all these, well it all started off from the very simple questions from my students. " Cher, why you want to come into teaching? Study to university already then how come still come into teaching?" or "Cher why you want to be a PE teacher? Good meh? Always run around everytime". Well just this simple question really brought me back to think much and was also a good time I felt to really look over if this is really where God wants me to go and also something which I am able to handle in future. True enought, when I was first asked the question, I was a bit toungue tight, not really very sure actually how best to answer it.
I took some time to reflect upon this and I realised it has been God's grace which had allowed me to be where I am and also this opening he have given to me. It was quiet a miracle on how my dad suddenly changed his perception to teaching and how he finally allowed me to go ahead in applying. Next I was not actually even offered the subjects which I wanted but still went ahead for the interview, and amazingly I was accepted and the subjects which I wanted also being offered to me. Even after I started teaching, I really struggled with getting up early and being energetic the whole day. Furthermore I am starting to sense that there is so much more admin things needed to be attend to by a teacher. Then also recently did not get very positive feedback form some of my collegues on some matters I did in school. Woh! So then frankly why do I still want to teach or be a teacher?
Even in the mist of all that, I know each time when I see the students, even if it is the playful, naughty and rebellious ones, I cant help but just have a heart for them. Dont really know how to describe it, but to put it short. I know even if I were not a teacher, I would be working in areas related to youths still.. as this is really where I sense I can impact lives and this is where God place His heart upon me for. Well I am the co form class of a Normal Tech Sec 3 class, and a subject teacher for a Normal Tech Sec 1 class, so if you are talking about facing the naughty students, I have seen them. I really enjoy the presense of the students and like what my collegue told me today.. I like to be around them.
So why do I become a teacher then? Simply because I love to be with the students and I want to impact their live with what I can give to them. I want to be a pastor in where God has place me! However even after what I went through thus far, I really can say there is so much so much more for me to learn, and so much so much more that God can use me in this area. I know this journey is only about to begain..
Stay tune for the next sharing....
Something on side... these few days I have been wearing more formal to sch, and with my new hair style.. students have been saying I should dress up more like this.. so affirming.. haha thanks students! Haha.... :P
