Saturday, January 06, 2007
.: youth camp reflection :.
yeah! hahas.
thank God for all His blessings,
especially during Christmas and the coming of 2007!
yups. hehes.
woah!
yes I know it’s been long ever since I last blog.
hahas. really LONG okiies!
my last post was like around october’06 can?
alemaks.
I apologise for this ya?
firstly was because of my o’levels and not long after, my bro’s computer spoilt!
and guess what?
his computer is not okiies yet!
I’m now using my dad’s computer.
he’s out so, I pleaded my mum to let me use it.
hohohos! Thank God! =))
okiies. enough of my nonsense.
wanna post up my thoughts for youth camp and cell advance.
will do it separately just in case, you all read until very sian.
Cos, the post is gone be LONG!
so, better be prepared! muahahahahas;))
yups.
the first session in the afternoon during youth camp didn’t really catch me.
however, the second and the third sessions, yes.
hahas.
session 2: RESTORING OUR HEARTS
-Ezekiel 36:26 =>this tells us that God wants to restore our hearts by giving us a new heart.
Pastor Adrian also shared with us the 3 conditions of our hearts,
simple, tender and a pure and undivided heart.
this was the part that really caught me. yups.
cos’ I belongs to the category that needs to restore a tender heart!
hahas.
Pastor Adrian said that a tender heart = opposite of a harden heart.
yups yups.
a harden heart can be caused by hurts, rejections, no simple faith etc.
for me, it’s caused by hurts. yups.for those who dunno Karen, she is a very close sister to my heart in church.
she had actually left church for some, I would say, nonsensical reasons?
yups.it really breaks my heart to see her leaving the church.
after leaving us, she actually blocked all of us in msn.
I sms her and dropped her a message in friendster but there’s not even a reply from her. this hurts me even more.
I went to her house on her birthday to pass her her birthday present and card and asked her about her life or so. what breaks my heart even more was when she refused to give me her new hp number when I asked her!
yupyups. all these things that she did(not replying sms etc) hurts me a lot.
I got very emotional whenever people said about Karen at first. later, I told myself that I must let go and let God handle this matter and not think about it anymore. so I control myself, partly also because i dun want mama to worry me.everything was okiies until 2weeks or so before the youth camp, God prompted to me that I hate someone. I prayed and asked God to show me the person. no answer. then I took out my hp and looked up the contacts that I have and asked God to show me. I scrolled and scrolled and scrolled until Karen’s name, I broke out down and cried, for no reason.i just started crying like nobody business.
the answer was clear. It was Karen. I continued to pray to God and He brought me back to the past events and showed me how harden my heart was in this area. I claimed to let God do the matter and believe in Him that he will bring Karen backbut my heart didn’t. thus, He could not enter to heal this wound as my door was closed. And unknowingly, those hurts became hatred. as in i hated her for causing hurts to me.yups. hahas. so during youth camp, I cried and repent before God and asked Him to restore my heart, tender heart in fact. I also prayed to God to take away all unforgiveness that I have and give me a forgiving heart as He has. yupyups. then mama prayed for me and I was slain lors.
hahas. yupsyups. kinda overwhelmed by the Holy Spirit.
for now, I’m really believing in God and leaving this matter to Him for I know that He can handle. to be frank, there’s still a little hurts or so in my heart now but I believe everything will be okiies soon! healing of wounds in heart takes time eh? hehes. yupyups
it will soon be OVER! hohohohos.
jessica=))
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