The Crazy bunch of JLtribe!

This year I went to the conference with a lighter heart, free from any distractions and burden that is in my heart. I went to the conference telling the Lord I want a greater empowerment and a deeper infilling of the Holy Spirit and also to be able to understand the mystery of our Lord Jesus Christ. Just like how Paul prayed upon Ephesians. I too want to experience how great, how far, how deep, how high is the love of Christ.

"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through the Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." Eph 3: 16 – 19

God is really good as when you ask of Him, He will graciously show it to you. During the message by Dainel Khong, although it seems to be a message which highlights a rather basic point, but the very word “Love” just blows my mind. I remembered how I had a glimpse of what it means by the revelation of the cross at last years G12 conference, however I felt I understood to a new level this time round. Daniel mentioned that Love is the answer to everything and it is so true. I remembered going forward to be prayed upon, as I wanted to enter into the Kingdom of light. However as Daniel prayed, and followed on by Pastor Khong who came in to continue on the prayer, I felt the Love of God overwhelmed me. I just kept crying and crying and then I heard God telling me, He actually used my daughters to teach me what it means of God’s unconditional love. Many a times I guess I have been hurt and disappointed by my daughters through this journey of spiritual leadership, however as I draw closer to the Lord and depended upon Him more, I am amazed at how I can still love them. I know that it is definitely God who provided me with that additional capacity to do it. It is because I have experience the Love of God personally, and I did not give up loving them even thought it was not easy. This hence brought me to understand how Jesus felt and went through when he was nailed on the cross. The disappointment and hurt that I went through is really nothing compared to what Jesus did for us on the cross and it is really because of the unconditional love God has for us that he put Jesus through this just because of us. It is because of this that I that really allowed me to love my daughters more that what I thought I could. This time round, I did not only felt the pain what was experience by Jesus on the cross, but I felt the hurt and disappointment but yet the unconditional love which the cross could give. Praise God! It was definitely a breakthrough in my spirit being for me.

I also remembered at the very first night of the conference, Pastor Khong also did mentioned that although the church have already been in the vision for 6 years, however there might not seem to be a drastic growth in the church. However he believes the people who are here now are warriors ready for battle. I reflected upon this and realized it is rather similar to my own cell and I have actually questioned God at times how come it seems to be people coming and going, when will I be moving out and exploding pass what I can imagine me to have. Hence at that moment I took it by faith the words Pastor said, that my spiritual children who are now left with me are all warriors ready for battle. Amen!

Throughout the entire Conference, one main thing which I felt was always being mentioned by the speakers was if we BELIEVE, believe God is able to move in our lives, believe God is able to give us the multitudes, believe God for the impossible. Believing would then also mean an increase of our faith in those areas in which we see God in our lives. I know I left the conference with a new level of faith, as I saw myself climbing up this flight of stairs, going higher and higher during the last few message while Ps Claudia prayed for us. I also know that I need so much more to really depend upon the power of the Holy Spirit. As what really touched me during the ladies session, was not only the message shared, but also I sense such a strong presence of the Holy Spirit through Ps Claudia and she is really such an anointed women of God. The Holy Spirit impressed upon me that if I continue to yearn for His presence, I could also be like her, for I am no less special in God’s eyes. I just kept crying and crying as I am so humbled by that and so touched by the love of God once again. I also remembered one thing clearly that Ps Cesar mentioned, that we need to find 12, 12 daughters not slaves, 12 people not anything more or less. Although in the past I know the importance of why we need to have 12 people, but now I am convicted to know it is only then that we will experience the breakthrough of multitudes. I want my 12 God! 12 warriors for the Lord!