.: reflection on youth camp :.
thank God for today!
hahas.
met up with wai yin and had a good talk with her=)
thank God for His Spirit, for guiding me through even as i speak to her.
and i am gonna claim it by faith that she learnt and take in everything that i had said to her.same goes to yuping!=)
but in anyways,i thank God for His very presence when i was with ping and wai wai.
i really enjoyed spending time with my two precious daughters!=)
thank God for their lives!
yups.
anyways,
woah.
talking about youth camp,
hahas!
i really enjoyed myself can?
i could just put down everything that's in my mind to play my heart out!
hohohos.
jealous right?
lols!
actually what i got from the youth camp during ministry was just something simple.
we need to see in ourselves what God sees us.
felt that this is the simplest thing yet the most difficult to look at.
get what i mean?
hahas.
meaning this was the most simplest and easiest thing that can get into our head but,
it was also the most difficult truth that can be received.
not that we cannot received.
is that we dunno and are not convicted.
just a simple thing like, "we are God's children."
very easy to understand,
very easy to rmb,
very easy to get into our head.
but how much do we believe in it and receive this truth,
is another thing.
yups.
and i think this is something that i really need to learn.
i always told myself i am not brought to this world by chance.
but times and again,
i am deceived by the devil.
my parents are busy.
especially my father.
though under the same roof,
but the chances of seeing each other is 2/7 a week.
as for my mother,
recently when we see each other,
we had nothing to talk about.
as if having cold wars.
sometimes the moment she sees me she will just tell me off.
i am not close to any of my brothers at all.
no one to turn to in the family.
i am a very optimistic person in all things except for my family.
the devil knows it and he is smart.
i was blinded by the devil again that my parents don't love me,
don't care about me and blah blah blah.
putting it into simpler terms,he's pulling all my sad memories out.
of course,
i did something that opened the door for him to do so.
questioned God.
yups.
i didn't guard my heart well is one thing.
but the most important thing that i failed to recognise and believe was that i am not born by chance!
hence when it comes to family issue,
i was easily put off guard and the devil could just attack me by getting hold of this area!
yups.
can understand? hahas.
so, please see that you are WORTHY and SO MUCH to Christ!=)
worship on sunday was powerful for me.
right there at where i stand,
God ministered to me.
He was so gentle.
He brought me though all that had happened in my household,
from the very day i received Christ til now.
thereafter, God asked me, "my daughter, are you still going to worship me?"
i did not answer God but just kept crying as the worship continues with the song,
'Jesus, Lover of my soul'.
[Jesus, Lover of my soul
Jesus, i will never let you go.
You taken me,
From the miry clay,
You set my feet upon the rock,
Now i know..
I love You, I need You.
Though my world may fall i'll never let you go..
My Saviour, My closest Friend,
I will worship You
Until the very end..]
when the song ended, God just asked me again,
"my daughter, are you still going to worship me?"
and i cried out to God, "Yes, Father, but please help me!"
God is really good i tell you.
the song after this was the one that "hit" me.
it goes something like...
[ i really want to worship You my Lord,
You have won my heart and i am Yours,
so i lift my voice to You
in adoration...]
i knelt before the Lord,
and as i knelt down,
He said to me, "because I love you, I will never let you go, nor will i forsake you."
after that eejay came over to pray for me and he said something like this also and it was from the Lord.
i couldn't help but just cried.
God is so real!
i can just sense God beside me when eejay was praying for me.
there's so much thanksgiving in my heart!!!
sunday sermon was just in time,
so for me?
hohohos.
at the end of the sermon,
felt that i need the Lord to help me to open up my spiritual eyes and to claim His purposes for me in my family and that i may look at my family in the eyes of the Lord and not mine.
in addition,
i felt that there's a need for renewal of my mind and conviction of my heart to believe that i am part of God's big plan=)
hence, i went forward during the altar call.
yups.
thank God for His unfailing love.
indeed,
my DADDY loves me!
wo de tian fu ai si wo! ;))jessica=))
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