Youth camp has always leaved behind a learning point as well as a start-up point for me. This year youth camp played a different learning point for me and indeed God has mould me in a special way.
I thank God for putting me as part of the committee this year. It has been a goal which I have set since last youth camp and really thanks God for answering this request. Apart from that, think it is not by chance that my spiritual mother was the camp commander; it’s really God’s hand upon it, leading her to be the camp commander. And because of this, I dare to approach her to be in the committee.
Being assigned to be in the game committee is something I ask God NOT to put me in, but in the end I was being part of it. I was afraid initially because this is something fresh to me. I was trained to be camp leader or camp committee in other area since poly but not in the game com before because I always choose to escape in this area as I find that the game com people are always the one who need to really bomb their brain and come out with games that must attract the camper. It’s a big challenge to me. I thank God for the encouragement; I have in mind of requesting to change to other area but God affirm me that I am not going to be a loser in this area and I must step into this area for this is where he want me to be so as to mould me for the path ahead of me.
I was glad to work closely together with Naterlie and Steven. It’s really amazing for the three of us to come together because the three of us was equipped with totally different personality. Things were not easy initially. Due to our different schedule, we often cannot arrange a time suitable for us to meet together. Therefore, we often have to meet out late and end late. Time seem not enough for us as we were not only meeting out often but also spending lots of time at home rushing out the proposal. Our fellowship built up and we became more engage with the planning and the proposal. Often, we seem so satisfy with our work but still face rejection during the meeting as there’s always flaw in our work. Sometimes, we do feel bit discourage but it’s really God’s hand upon us that he continue to enlighten us up with new and sudden idea, improving to the previous one.
Finally, the camp arrived. Games do crop up with slight mistake here and there during the camp, making me sometimes worried and panicked over what is the next step to do. I was often disappointed at how others don’t recognised the effort we put in and there’s negative commend on parts and parts of the game. And it’s during this period when I felt a sense of disappointment; the Lord shows me one very important flaw in my character which is fighting for the approval of other.
Since poly, I have build up a very ambitious character due to the harsh training we have in our leadership program. Often, the training is very tough to us as they are training us to be a strong leader in leading the freshmen camp. Therefore, during the training we, the leaders all seem to be competing against one another in term of our leading quality and our physical being. I was often the losing part in term of physical training as I cannot run well. And due to these three years of harsh training, I was very mindful of how other recognised my effort in everything I do. But the lord softens me during this youth camp. I remember during one of my bicycle ride from one station to another during the telematch, there was a very strong feeling whereby the entire committee members name just fleshed across my mind. At this moment, the lord wants me to slow down my pace and observed what the other committee members and facilitator were doing. I realised that there’s only one goal in each and every one of them; to do their best for this camp.
I thanks God for showing me this. It make me realise that one effort is not enough and power only come when all unite and work together with a similar goal in mind; making the camp a success. Often, we are overrun by our own effort and wanting others to recognise the effort you put in but the lord tells us that why not just stop and recognising other’s effort first. Only when you have witness the effort by each and everyone, then you will realise that it’s not you or her that make the camp possible but its us using the spirit that God has poured into us together that make miracle happens.
