It was the "Greatest Hidout" we did yesterday as a few of us went down to watch Daughter JoA Guitar Performance at VCH. It was meant to suprise her as we got our tickets without her knowing and even asked her friends to pass her the flowers which we bought for her, saying it was form her secret admrier. Ha ha!!! We actually even thought of just leaving without letting her know, but well off course ended up she was very touched to have seen us. Even as I was seating there watching her perform, there was this sense of pride that came upon me. Yes! Joadine Nui Er, I am so PROUD of you to even see you performing up there, even if is it was just a small role, and most of the time you were blocked by people, but I believe you have overcomed and won something that you were uncomfortable with from the start. You did it, you made it, and now finally you ended it with a BANG! Most importantly, I can sense that God is smiling above and telling you He is so proud of you as well! Enjoy the photos of my new Shuai Daughter and her supporters!!!
It was really a challenge having to get up so early in the morning on a saturday to come and "train" ourselves up! However as difficult as it may be, we all came, had fun, worked out ourselves and most of all walked this city and proclaim it for the Lord, that Singapore will come to know the Lord! We conquered the given distance and rewared ourselves with a wonderful meal! I believe we each had a great time, going through places which we never knew were around, just like tourist! Haha.. and not forgetting the family time which we had, as we talked, had fun, and sweat it out together! Enjoy the photos and Take the City Walk 2007 here we come!
I had the privilage to be at the Ementoring training for the SMU students just over the the recent tuesday and wednesday. It was a wonderful experience as well as one which indeed opened up my eyes and mind towards the youth in this wired generation.
On the whole, I am really thankful and proud of my spiritual Father, Ps Yeang Cherng, in heading his team in this area of Cyberwellness, to really be able to serve the great need of youths issues related to the internet. Even though I heard almost all of what my dad shared during his presentation, since he presented them to us before, but it came through me with new understanding. This is definitely the first time hearing Ps YC sharing to a general audience and even as I hear him speak, there was this sense of pride in me, that I actually have a dad who is has actually impacted many in what he has been doing, one who shares and integrate Godly values in his teachings! Even before the course, and hearing so much on what Ps YC shared regarding what he and his team is doing in TCS concerning the cyber arena, I never really did catch the Heartbeat of my father and truely know the importance and significant of it and why he keep emphasizing on it. I knew it in my head but did not know in what areas I could help or to use it enguage the youths. It was ony after the course that I knew the importance and significant of all the effort which Ps YC and his team have been putting in, and the great influcence they have upon the lives of the youths. I am also glad that I can be part of this ementoring scheme as finally I found a way to do my Father's Business! Even after the course and over the last few weeks where I have learnt and hear much on things related to internet and issues concering the youths over the internet, it brought me to realised how ignorant I am actually to all these things! I thank God for allowing me to once again be reminded that in order to reach the Wired Generation, I need to be connected back to the latest happenings and this will definitely not leave out the internet! Even as I handle the youths in my school now, I find it so much more important to be updated in this area. I remember I just mentioned a little on Mapel Story and used the little I know to talk to this boy in my class, and form there it started such a hot conversation and not only with one boy, but many. Lets go and enguage this generation that needs to know of God in the cyber space! Be a Dreamer, Mover and Shaker there!!!
Me blogged @ | 2:17 PM
.: Wonderful, Magnificant Encounter! :.
Just came back for the 24/7 night prayer meet slot. Although once again I am very tired and tomorrow have to get up real early for work(school), I thought I should come here and share this wonderful encounter I had with my Father! Cant help but to give thanks! Came for the prayer meet with just a simple heart, ready to receive and wanted to hear more from God.. quiet the normal self as I come for prayer meet each time. Guess it really just takes a simpleness for God to come and really encounter you. Pastor Melvin was the lead in the prayer today and he shared from form Nehemiah 1:1-11 and basically here it touches on the life of Nehemiah and his reasponse to God. One key thing on the heart of Nehemiah was his concern for his nation and his people. I always asked God to give me a heart for the nation and his people, a heart for the poor and a heart that is of God, one who feels for the lost. Each time I know when I am asked to pray for the nations, I will just pray as hard as I can, with the words that I know, but much of it is just head knowledge but dont really feel anything. What happen was Pastor gave an invitation to go forward for those who wants to be filled with the holy spirit and want God to come upon us to give us a heart for the nation, as well as remove that heart which has much fear and doubts. I readily went forward, but by then I knew I felt there was something God was waiting to show me. I do not know how and what really happened, and even till now am still shocked by myself, for I just started to cry and really wail, which is something I never did before. All I know is that I just cant stop, and I kept crying and crying and wailing and wailing. I know it was not because I was emotionally sad over some matters personally, but there is just this pain in my heart then for the lost, a very deep sense of compassion for them. Right then I knew very well, it was really the holy spirit moving within me, and I never knew that such a thing really can happen in me. I know now how sad God is for those out that who have yet to know Him! Then only after the entire matter that I also remember one encounter just not long ago, when I felt so much percercution form my parents that when no one was at home that afternoon, I just came on my knees prayed and started to cry. This cry that time was of a similar extand to what I experienced at the prayer meet and at that time I felt such burden to really pray for my parents' salvation! I thought I was a bit crazy then when I cried so badly at home... but as I thought back now, I believe it was then when the Holy Spirit had already started His work in me. Praise God!
I really thank God for that wonderful, sweet and magnificant encounter with Him. This is truely the first time I can say, I really had a powerful personal encounter with the Holy Spirit! It really layed upon my heart a greater burden to pray for the nations, starting from the salvations of the people around me and really a heart to pray pray pray and pray until something really happen. I believe strongly this special encounter did not just come by just like that, but I know I have been truely wanting very much to draw nearer to Him, and by following closely to the 40day prayer and fast really did help me clear many baggages in my life and also to be able to undrestand more about who this God is in my life. Even having to have gone through my new Working (Sch) life, as well as the ementoring course to find out more of the needs of the youths, did help to open up my eyes to see that there are actually so many youths out there that need to come to know of this God! Keep praying and desiring to draw neared to God each day my Daughters, for I believe God will come and encounter you in His own sepcial way, just like He did for me!
Me blogged @ | 12:03 AM
Thursday, July 27, 2006
.: eunice :.
blog: hi eunice! eunice: hello! not been here for quite sometime. blog: i know, you moderator leh. how could you! eunice: aiyah! sorry lah. i also dunno what to write mah. but you know i still visit once in a while one what. blog: so how's life? eunice: just had my prelims oral today. i dun want to talk about it. i had been burried under books, and if not, pillows for the past few days. so it's study and sleep. more on sleep. i sleep around 8pm now a days. i just cant keep my eyes open, you know. blog: hmm... how's your walk with God? eunice: very tiring. of course. to be honest. there are times that i can't even catch up. sometimes my walking a bit twisted. blog: why? eunice: because of stupid o level lah. sucking all up my mental/physical/spiritual energy. sigh. then i will tend to vent my fustriations on wrong things then get worse you know. like my mom. talk back to her. sigh. went back to old habit. very close to entering tunnel of hatred too. trying so hard to avoid it. blog:complicated huh? eunice: no lah. simple. in worldly eyes maybe a bit. but must let everything rest in God mah. so then simple liao. all probs very simple one. blog: ok, you still got your basics. so any other cool news? eunice: oh yes! help me tell everyone we are going for 10km army hald marathon at padang on the 27 of august sunday. it's in the morning. ask them to get to me before sunday. if not mother julee/audrey/ms lim will chop me to pieces. i think its $12. got discount if more people come i think. should be running with ahpa eejay and bros. btw ah, it the abbreviation of the brothers is bros, sister leh? siss ha? maybe sisses? hmm... blog: ok... if i see them then i' ll will. eunice: thanks... going to sleep... i mean back to sleep. i'll drop sooner or later blog: make that sooner... bye! God bless
Me blogged @ | 9:45 PM
.: Blessing at work... :.
Realised not much time I can find to really blog.. now it is already past 12midnight and tomorrow I still have to get up early for the TPP course in the morning. However I realised it really takes discipline in a way to come and blog. Hence I will make an effort to.. and really hope that the rest will follow..
It has been two days in my new school environment, Junyuan Sec, and I guess I am starting to enjoy being a PE teacher as well as to appreciate the Monkey students in school. I can say the PE department in this sch has really great teachers, and they are role models whom I believe I can follow and learn much form, hearing from the experience they have. I am so thankful that I have to opportunity to be placed among them. Just on the second day of work, the PE teachers had an informal meeting and outside school at the Bedok conner hawker center and the senior teachers were so nice as to treat the younger ones ( there are also two other NIE PE teachers who will be leaving on Wed). Although I can see that more work is expected for me ahead, since now still in honey moon season, but I am sure I will enjoy them, as long as I continue to trust God and keep the positive spirit. However I really think I enjoy teaching PE, esp since I can get to play with the students and run around with them.. Haha and off course not forgetting, being able to come to sch in T-shirt and shorts with shoes every day!
One more thing to thank God for is that I found a FCBC teacher in my sch! Yeh! Initially on the first day when I saw her, Laural Koh, I felt very much she was who I thought she was, but then did not dare to confrim. Then yesterday I happen to be in the pantry making a drink and she came in wanting to heat up her food. So I really felt she was so farmilar and I decided to ask her. And YES I was not wrong after all. She just came in to teach in Juyuan in the beginning of this year. I could remember her more as I also know the brother, Ezra Koh. God is indeed amazing as I have been praying for Him to place FCBC teachers in this sch, so at least I have ppl whom I can talk to more. She also told me there is another male teacher who is also form FCBC, but he is in the adult net. I am really grateful and thankful that God placed her in this sch and am looking forward to interacting more with her in future! Haha the shocking thing was, just when we wer talking, my mentor came in, and she openly told him she knows me and we are form the same church. She also readily asked my mentor to come down with his family for the Take the City Walk this sat! It was something which made me realised something that I can learn, she really lives a christain life, not ashame of proclaiming she is a christain and uses any opportunity that come along her way to invite her friends! Something which we really can learn from.. making evengelism part of our lifestyle!
I also spent my two nights, yesterday and today at SMU going through this E-mentoring course conducted by TYS. Woh.. much more to share on what I learn there.. stay tune.. up and coming the the next blog... for now.. Ahhh.. better go sleep if not tomorrow cant get up.. and I cant be late!!! Haha...
Me blogged @ | 12:13 AM
Monday, July 24, 2006
.: My First Day At Work... :.
And Yes if you are wondering, finally I have stopped being unemployed and bumping around! It is my first day of work today, first day at school, and first time as a teacher! A wonderful experience, a unique time, and definitely much more challenging things to come. I know I entered the sch with excitement as well as uncertainty of what I am about to face. Initially when I saw that I was posted to this school, I was a bit sad, firstly how come it is at tampines (So Far!!!) and secondly I dont think it is a very good sch. It did not help when I heard not so good comments of that sch as well along the week before I really step foot there. But after today, although I can still say the students are really playful and cheeky, but I guess the sch on the whole is ok, with its teachers and Principle being friendly and helpful. Althought it was just the first day, but then I thought I encountered many laughable moments when I see how the student behaved. Haha.. Oh and one great thing is, I can wear tshirt and shorts to sch with sports shoes everyday to sch and there is no rulling to have to change out of it. Yeh!!! But I am excited to go to sch and am looking forward to learning more form all the experienced teachers there. Even as I had the experience to learn along side my mentor today, and as I observe the students, I really thank God for giving me this opportunity to be able to be at a position as I am today, as he brought me to really have a heart for these youths out there. Can see that many of them in the outside of being "naughty", actually I believe many a times they are just trying to get attention and people who seek attention. I also thank God for placing a mentor, whom I heard form others, is one that I can really learn much from. I would just want to walk in faith, and I believe for this one year that I am in this sch, really will nurture my fruits of the spirit! Haha.. need to really be patience with them and learn to love the not so easy to love people!
Ah Ma Ju Lee :P
Me blogged @ | 9:00 PM
.: Great Humidity :.
I just attended a wake yesterday... deaths are occurring, people are leaving... in fact, this was the 2nd death I heard along the week.. to b Honest & frank, I dont know what they are going thru... I m upset tt they lost someone so dear to them yet I can never fully understand what they are going thru & how they are feeling... You see, when was the last time I attended a wake of someone dear to me---it was like I was in my Pri 1 or 2 ?? My Father's Father aka Granddad passed away all I remembered was running around his coffin =X It sounds ridiculous yar... but pardon me, I did not know much back then..On top of the 2 news I received, my dear bro told me tt one of my junior got himself into serious accident.. I think broke his arm ba =S and he told me tt another gal passed away (I gona admit tt I dnt hv much impression of her)..Gosh, so many of such things...is God tryin to tell me something???!!!
As I was at my kitchen pouring water to drink, I pondered over this again...Joa, do u want to wait till such thing happens then u regret for not treasuring the people ard u? this struck me esp in regard to my Mom.hey, when this Qn popped into my mind, it seems as if all the Cold Wars, Arguments can be dissolved if I Humble myself to tk the first step to talk to her…if this Qn has not appear, I will still b indifferent & Ai Mian Zi ba.. hahaz, I think I am quite like my mom.. We Will Nvr tk the 1st step to Give in... Die die also want face =Xthus, I feel tt it will b the ultimate humility if I were to say I am the worst Daughter in the whole world to her... Wah! like Paul in 1Tim 1:15 it requires Great humility!!Okie la, God, u convict my heart yar to go humble before her.. I can say tt it is like wantin my life la...haha..I can NEVER do it in my own flesh & strength..so thus, I nd God to break me & gv me tt boldness to go forth and settle this issue....Seeing the bigger picture, I want to see her knowing God & see her save by the blood of the lamb...If she can b praying, burning to incense to XXXXXXXX (I duno who), faithfully everyday...I Must b more diligent to pray for this woman to the TRUE God I know & I have!!!Cant stand her.. hahaz.Ultimately, I want to know tt I hv done my best while she is still alive & kicking.. being a Guai & Filial Daughter to her then to cry cry cry knowing tt she is gone & I hv nvr do my part...
jOaDine :P
Me blogged @ | 8:51 PM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
.: Costly Worship... :.
Even as I read through today's message in the 40 day prayer guide book, it once again brought me to realised I need to always surrender the Isaac in my life, to obey God and always having the fear of the Lord! What it really means to surrender, guess as I mediated over it, God showed me a whole new area into this once again. Surrender is really to give Him first rights and full rights to do whatsoever He pleases. I guess in one way, it really means to let God take hold of the dreams which you have, how you hope things will be like for you in future. Not really easy as I believe many a times we would hope things will turn out to be as what we hope for or plan for, but if we are trying so hard to make them turn out that way, then are we truely trusting in the Lord, for His plans are higher then ours. One area which I guess I have to learn to surrender is how things will be like in the future. At times I choose to think and plan, but then it dont turn out the way I thought it would have gone, I become disappointed and start to wonder if God really has something greater installed for me. I remember what a brother told me recently, we need to look at the BIG PICTURE. Until we are able to do that, then only are we able to understand more of what God has installed for us and not just on the setbacks of problem which we have ahead of us. Hence I believe having to surrender to the Lord our Isaac is not only means something dear to us, but something which we find it difficult to let go and trust God in. I want to follow Abraham's footsteps and want that definding moment in my life, just like how Abraham brought up a sweet incense into Heaven with his act of obedience.
God gives everything to those who surrender all to Him. Are you willing to do that, to receive the greatest blessings that God has for you?
Me blogged @ | 5:43 PM
Sunday, July 16, 2006
.: LEAPS :.
okiies. i dunno what to blog. but share with you all my quiet time okiies?
okiies. today, God showed me the word L.E.A.P.S. so what does it stands for?
L- Love E- Edify A- Accept P- Persevere S- Submit
ypuyup. i think the message is very good?
*Love:: first and greatest commandment- Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.(matthew 22:38) second commandment- love your neighbour as yourself.(matthew 22:39) yupyup. indeed. two weeks ago, pastor talked about loving God. yupyupx. DO WE TRULY LOVE GOD OR ARE WE JUST FOLLOWING WHAT OUR FRIENDS ARE DOING? have a heart check! next, love your neighbour as yourself. yeah. let's talk about our spiritual family. that's enough. caz i think we really need to love our spiritual family first then we can love others. many times find it very difficult to love. especially when we can see all the bad "kuan" of our spiritual family members. ya lo.
*edify:: yupyup. think mama also said lots of times. must edify one another in our cell. ya lo. encouage is necessary to spure one another on. if your sister/brother is falling away, pull him/her back! encourage him etc.
*accept:: we must learn to accept one another. must learn to accept our spiritual family members' all of their bad "kuan". just like mama accepts and tolerates all of our bad "kuan". despite of our attitude, she still show us her love, care and concern for us. why? because she love us! she accept who we are! just like God accepts what we are. yupyupx.
*persevere:: i think this is very good for me. caz have been struggling with reaching out to ppl. hahax. share Christ with my freiends already. then for a while they seem to be okiies. after that they will not be happy. reach out a few times only. but i feel very tired. especially with my tests and everthing. feel like giving up. but GOd showed mama to me. how she persevere and prayed earnestly to HIM, never giving up smsing us. and HE is faithful. joadine's return is a life testimony!
*submit:: SUBMIT. good word. i like it. it's so easy to say you are committed to your leader eh? but how to prove it through your actions? difficult right? however, if you mean it with all your heart. it won't be difficult. yupyup. happened to flip to Romans. den saw this chapter 13, submission to the authorities. yupyup.thought it was a very good chapter. ya lo ya lo. do read up.
yeah. and here, right now, whoever that is reading this, i challenge you to LEAPS! love, edify, accept, persevere and submit to your leaders! account to your leader all your troubles and problems. let him/her help you. be open. believe me. your relationship with your leader will comfirm, 100% chop chop, improved. yupyup. jia you!
okiies. i super tired. going to bed. good night! bye byezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz=P
Me blogged @ | 1:42 AM
Friday, July 14, 2006
.: HELLO !! :.
hEllO !! gUess whO's hEre .. wAahAahAa !! my first time here wors .. mMm .. nOw at eunice's hse datt's why ii can blOg .. hahax .. jus came bak from lOt 1, jus now went there to meet mama to eat and chat up with one another ..
my life is STRESS !! guess everybody knOws datt .. can see datt my face is oways so tired =p ii really miss those holiday time where ii can slack and really have the quality time to chat up with everyone .. until now didn't really got to knOw yujia jie jie .. hhaiishh .. and she is leaving soon .. sObb .. gonna miss her .. actually ii miss everybody .. ii think ii oways like MIA .. cant see mie expect on sunday ritex ?! hOpe tO haf mOe time tO spend with yOu guys .. please cOrr me if yOu are free and we can go out toogether ..
ya .
one thing ii can see is that [to be true] ii really not been spending much quality time with god [please dont learn from mie] but yupx, even though ii been lying tO myself datt ii cant hear god [actually is ii clOse my ears tO god's wOrds] ;; but god is sO faithful, god is so good dat even thought ii had not been listening to him but he really show me datt he is here no matter wad and he will help mie .. ii awas touched by the holy spirit few days ago and ii realise how far ii was .. soo ii decided to open my ear to hear god again and let his glory shine .. ii gonna to show his wonderful work he had done in mie to friend around mie and ii gonna share with them the greatness of god .. ii think datt something we should ask ourself .. have we been continuing running after god and really go church to seek him ?? or are we just saying that we are running after god when we actually dont and we jus come church jus to worship and jump at the alter jus to have fun ??
DON BE A SUNDAY CHRISTIAN !! BE A HISTORY MAKER AND TELL THE WHOLE WORLD, JESUS LIVES!!
Me blogged @ | 8:17 PM
.: My Commencement!!! :.
Woh! And in just a while, it was over! It was an amazing day, a wonderful day, a day to thank God for! Finally I wore my graduation gown and walked up onto stage, that 2s or so, and got my certificate! Yes and I have graduated and into the working world I come! Haha.. not very keen on that though, but it will be a whole new phrase in my life!
Can't imagine so fast and 4 years of my NUS life has passed, so many years of going back to take pictures with people who graduated in the past years, now the time has come for me. It is so much more special and unique even as I have the opportunity to share this wonderful and joyous moment with many of my brothers and sisters who are graduating this year! Believe we had a good time taking pictures and all, but I know these memories will go down many many more years! It was in NUS where I came to know the Lord as well, hence I believe even as I have graduated, this place will always be somewhere special in my heart! It is here where I shared my joy, my tears, my craziness with the family and it is here where the family of Christ has always been my stength and support! Cant help but tear as I write this for I am so touched by all the goodness I have experienced!
God definitely all praise goes out to you for you bringing me through these 4 years and can't imagine going through them without knowing You! It has been my greatest Joy and blessing!
Me blogged @ | 10:04 AM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
.: A new Life... :.
Attended Baby Gracia one month celebration last sun at sister Lindee's place. It was a gathering of the BIG family to welcome this new life that God has blessed the couple with. Baby Gracia was so cute, so small, so fragile. Even as I see the smiles on the father's and mother's faces, there is so much joy as I see them holding on to the new life! Even as we sang worship songs and had moments to pray for the couple and the baby, tears just cant help but flow down my eyes as I it brought me to realised how wonderful a new life is and how amazing our God can be! Looking at the baby and mother really made me reflect upon what mothering is really all about. As I see that small life in Lindee's hands, I believe Baby Gracia will grow up to be a lovely girl! It really is not easy to even bring up the young child and the many adjustments which I hear Lindee has to make, is not something easy. But at the end of it all, it is the joy of seeing the child grow and the smile on her face which I believe is all worth it. Similarly, even as I see each one of my spiritual daughters growing up, walking through the difficult moments in their lives, the discipline which I have to give and the painful times which I have to face. But through it all, having to see each one of you slowly understanding my heart and finally coming to realised it all, it really warms my heart and I cant help but Thank God for bringing us through. It has really been a joy my daughters, to be able to hear each one of you sharing more with me, and like what I told Jessica the last time, it is because you are finally part of the family that now when there is "family matters" it will naturally affect you and you would want to try your best to solve them. Seriously I am so proud of each one of you and to see each one of you making the effort to bringing the family closer together! Lets continue to really be encouraging and supporting each other as we are committed to one another as God is committed to us!
Me blogged @ | 9:15 PM
Friday, July 07, 2006
.: eunice :.
hello! just came back from g12 so very high. got inspiration to post.
combined with kelly's family. i was late! so malu. but then you all shouldn't have waited for me! gugu shared today. really powerful. it kind of collaborates with SP's sermon
IS GOD LORD OR ARE YOU LORD? thanks for God's word from gugu. it really opened my eyes.
as you know, i'm having my O level this year. i have to admit that it has been dominating my life. the pressure of must get distinctions. the fear of not getting good grades. and the huge problem is, i haven't really entered the study mood. procrastinating always. sigh. i didn't come to school today by the way. too lazy.
anyways, i've always told myself that at this moment, i will focus on my studies. church somehow became a secondary department in my life. i will still go to church, of course, to get blessings. beyond that, minimal participation. so selfish right! after Os, i promise that i will go full time in church.
unfortunately, i wasn't able to go for church last sunday (for those of you who don't know and want to know why, ask personally). but gugu gave an overview. she then talked about putting God first. some sub categories like relationships and mothering. she asked us when was the last time we felt the presence of God. i didn't copy notes so that's just a very brief summary.
there God spoke to me. have i put studies in front of him? isn't the battle won already? why am i still keeping lifeboats? he told me that this is a period of test. and during a period of test, it is not the time where you give up and lean back, it is the time where you give it all. you don't let you guard down. u strain your every muscle as if it's your last run before the competition to see if your good enough. does not a car shows its best features and its flaws on a rocky road and not on a smooth one? if i start dedicate my all after my Os, it will be like showing my topnotch acting skills during a dry run (theatre term: the first rehearsal of a performance where the actors go through their lines without the need of much countenances).
in this period of trial, i must persevere and continue to walk closely with God. my perspective has changed. i want to please God in everything i do. i will no longer study to please man but study and please God. i still need to meditate more about this to give it a good foundation. i know, i'm talking again. it's just words. but with the strength of the Holy Spirit my words will manifest itself in the flesh. wohoo!
oh! and one last thing! i've noticed that our family has so much complications now a days. much more than y'all know of. lucky i got nothing to do with it all. but, of course, i'm affected. really a period of test.
Me blogged @ | 7:08 PM
Thursday, July 06, 2006
.: From the inside out :.
[ FROM THE INSIDE OUT ]
A thousand times I've failed,
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again,
I'm caught in Your grace Everlasting -Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending - Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else,
My purpose remains The art of losing myself,
In bringing You praise Everlasting - Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending - Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul,
Lord I give You control Consume me from the inside out Lord
let justice and praise,
Become my embrace To love you from the inside out
Everlasting - Your light will shine when all else fades Never ending - Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart, Is to bring You praise From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out
A wonderful song which when it was first sung at service last sun, the lyrics just caught me. I was thinking what it really means the title of the song - From the inside out. It really brought me to realise this song is a call for intermacy with the Lord. Something form so deep inside us, that our heart and soul wnats to cry out to the Lord to bring Him praise. To really love the Lord beyond all situations and circumstances!
Give yourself time to think through what it really means to be Loving the Lord Form the inside out
Me blogged @ | 2:57 PM
.: Is Jesus Lord of our Life? :.
" And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in everyway: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light" Col 1: 10-12
The key verse which Pastor Khong ended the LN1728 meeting yesterday was to tell us to Walk Worthly of God : worthy of God in His calling, His grace, His blessing, His giftings on us and also His salvation plan for us. The Question which would follow is then How do we walk a life worthly of God? As it was being mentioned, we live a life worthy of God that may plesae him in everyway, in all circumstance and through all obstacles. We should walk this journey with God in such a way that we love God so much, that our only passion is to please Him! Just like what was mentioned about loving Jesus and serving Jesus, we should place Jesus as number one in all that we do. Hence the final question is Is Jesus the Lord of our life? Has something else, someone else, taken over that rightful throne in our life? Have we been guilty of spending a great deal of our energies, time, money and resources on ourselves? Have we magnified our own needs beyond proportion, hence we have forgotten to care for others. Come before the throne of God now to confess your them and ask for forgiveness. But then again it might have been the hustle and business of life which we are in that make us replace Jesus being the Lord of our life.
Even as I poundered through all these, I realised that I can truely say that Jesus has yet to be the Lord of my life, especially in every area and at times I do not do things with the only desire to please Him, but to also please men and to please myself. It will be a constant reminded and renewing of mind for myself to really enthrone and place God above all things and I only live to please Him.
Just like the prayer we made as we kneel down as a body, that we do not want our family, do not want our work, do not want our relationship, our ministry our own desires, and the things of this world, money, fame, name, but just want to live a life that pleases God!
Daughters lets work towards living a life that we can say, Jesus is the Lord of our Life!!! :P
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.: Mighty Women Of God! :.
I am a G12 Leader, you are a G12 leader. I am a mighty women, you are a mighty women. We are committed to one another!
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.: ThanksGiving (Part 3) :.
A short but sweet sharing....
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.: ThanksGiving (Part2) :.
Thanks Daughters.. you all are so Wonderful!!!
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
.: People Of God!!! :.
A time of RARA after our last session and worship!!!!
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.: Thansgiving (Part1) :.
Time for some thanksgiving which my daughters recorded down for me. So nice.. :P so touched =D .. and thanks for everything as like I always say, all wont have went so well without the presence of God and each one of you made a difference!!!
P.s: Actually like hear more of the background piano and drumb sound more then what they are speaking.. Haha.. and notice the many YAR LOR!! Woops...
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
.: 7000 Smiles Challenge :.
We went, we smiled and we conquered! It was a good time as we walked around parkway that afternoon to catch the smiles of people. Many took it in faith and moved out of their comfort zone! We were amazed at how responsive some of them were in taking their pictures with us, and wanted even us to take more. Then in the mist of all these smiles, we also came upon two people who were also form FCBC, and one of them is in the picture! We have been also following up with some since then and am praying that indeed they will come to know the one who will bring a real smile into their lives... Who is JESUS!!!!
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.: Running Sleeping Bags?!?! :.
Some Crazy thing which my daughters did on the last night of the re encounter!!! A Mini GoGoGo Contest??? More like the sleeping bag has caught them and swallowed them!!!!
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Monday, July 03, 2006
.: Finally the Photos.... JLtribe Re encounter!!! :.
Got to practice what I just learn.. realised it is not a very easy thing to get these pictures up, much time needed to wait for uploading.. anyway enjoy!!
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.: What a wonderful thing to love and serve Jesus!!! :.
Even as I read daughter Joadine's entry on not to compare with others and really just want to do your best for the Lord.. Sense that it was so timely when Pastor Eugune share upon Lord supper today at Service, on our envious heart, and Senior Pastor sharing on a heart that just love and serve Jesus. Personally, I knew I did question God on some things after the miracle catch weekend. One of them was that "God has others been blessed a greater protion then me? Have I not been walking closely or praying enough?" Then when Pastor Eugune mentioned today that we should not envy others and that just like the bread and the wine in our hands, we all have an equal portion and share in God's Love for us. Immediately tears rolled down my eyes as I repented that I even had doubts about the blessing that God has for me.. He is a fair and just God and He will bless everyone in His time! I guess many a times we can get so carried away even in ministry and serving the lord to let the worldly standards come in to judge upon what God has initially intended for us. I thought today's sermon was so special indeed as Pastor Khong made the effort to pray for his people personally.. I wanted so much to run up when the invitation was given, but as I had consolidation duty and not sure if he were to have altar call, I just had to stay at my place. However indeed God bless and speaks as long as your heart is right to receive and listen even though you might not be right infront. I was touched by the love of God once again and I knew that no matter what the circumstances in life I might be faced with, as long as I know I love Jesus and I serve Jesus,Life if not easy but it will be simple.I want to continue to live that simple life that God has for me. Even as I evaluated with my girls over the sermon, two of them actually heard the same sentense that God spoke to them, which I also thought it was something good for each one of us to really think about.
" How much do U really love Jesus and how do U love Jesus?"
Ju Lee aka Ah ma :P
Say Cheeze.. the formal class photo!
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.: Without Compromise :.
King Nebuchadnezzar of Babylon desired to unite his kingdom by instituting a centralized form of worship. He built a statue of gold about 90 feet tall and 9 feet wide and ordered that everyone must fall down and worship the statue whenever the royal music began to play.A report was delivered to the King that Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego were refusing to worship the golden image. The King summoned these three young Jewish men and gave them one more chance to conform to his rules for worship. Daniel 3:15"If you are ready to fall down and worship the image I made, very good. But if you do not worship it, you will be thrown immediately into a blazing furnace. Then what god will be able to rescue you from my hand?" These three followers of Almighty God were faced with an ultimatum; "Compromise your beliefs, or die!" They could have found a way to rationalize this false worship - they could have found a variety of excuses for compromise. But rather than fall to the pressures of their surrounding environment, the three decided to live a life of unwavering faith and unashamed devotion to the One True God. Daniel 3:17-18"If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and He will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if He does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up." Very few will ever face a "Compromise or die!" ultimatum. But almosteveryone will be tempted to push aside convictions and bow to such "golden images" as financial gain, physical pleasure, recognition, orconflict avoidance. We are also constantly tempted to "bow down" withthe "entertainment" we watch, listen to, or read. Standing firm requires a determined effort to remain solidly on God's path.Hearing God's direction for our life can sometimes be difficult; but one truth remains - God NEVER asks us to compromise His standard in order to follow His path. We can therefore be assured that ANY compromise represents a deviation from His plan.Let's strengthen the convictions God has already placed on our heart. We need not be ashamed of, nor fear, what we know is true; and we need never doubt the perfection of His path. Let's live a life of consistent belief and trust such that what we believe is directly reflected in the way we live. Let's take a stand and live a God-honoring life without compromise.
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.: The C.O.C.O.N.U.T :.
anyway, i went tO sch with a new spirit=D as i was askin where is my heart a few days ago, i hv yet to know the answer.. hahaz. but i make it a point tO mk the remaining of my Heart (or mind) Focused! =*) hahaz.. so now i Xia Ding Jue Xin to work hard for my studies...super hard gal..although i duno how yet, (the prob is: i nd my notes & all of the study suff in order b4 i can study in Peace & a nice & conducive Pl..my hse is definitely OUT! coz iL zZz.. =X) , but as i prayed this morning, i felt that God assured me that He is a faithful God! also reminded me that things may nt go or may not feel right all the times...the tough times come but i just nd to Hang in there & claiming & go do all i hv first stated in here!!!Ya lOr..hahaz..also feel that when i Hang in There with God, only will I be able to experience His Faihfulness myself!!! First Hand de wor..Oh My,it may nt b easy but isnt it exciting?also, i was reading this story in which i printed out & it struck me hard once again.. this story goes like this... (Plz tk time to Read this story, it is worth readin =D)
One day I decided to quit...I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. "God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me... "Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" "Yes", I replied. "When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo." He said. "In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said. "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. *Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle." He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots?" "I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you." *"Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful." "Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high" "How high should I rise?" I asked. "How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return. "As high as it can?" I questioned "Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can." I left the forest and bring back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you. He will never give up on you. "those roots made it strong & gave it what it needed to survive. i would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle." -Ya lor, this sentence struck me... as all the challenges i am having will simply contribute to the strong the roOts i am gg to have later... Can i be the coconut tree?! i think i loOk like C.O.C.O.N.U.T.. if u wana know why, ask me!! =) i wana my roots so that i can b strong & Rise high! =D " 'Dont compare yourself to others' God said to me. 'You will rise high!' " - yup, from here, i realised that i shld nt mk comparison w myself frm others =) hahaz.. it is tiring to compare, u know =) woOhoOo!!! JIA SHEN YOU!
Joadine :P
The Snacks Queen!
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Saturday, July 01, 2006
.: Thanksgiving for the Re encounter :.
I had long wanted to be baptize, but just dont have the guts to ask my father. Fear of him that he would reply me negatively which I dislike. Blessed to have this re encounter for my cell with my sisters and mom. Very glad and greatful that I just felt the real and true closeness among all of us. The re encounter camp was a joyous and meaingful one. I realised how truely God was and miracles are there for us to see and receive. It was a blessed two and a half day camp. After the camp, I got home and was quiet exhausted but was very bless and glad that I went. On that day, something actually happened. My father questioned me asking me how was the camp and there upon asking me if I have boyfriends a not. That was kind of silly question to ask. Then, there I actually felt that someone prompting me on asking my father about the baptism. I was fearful and did not dare to ask. I told and ask my mother if I should ask. She told me "why not?" There came this fearful moment and greatful part of my life. I asked my father if I could be baptize. To my suprised, he said that I could go ahead but there could be disadventages and advantage of conquences. I knew it, that he would actually link and connect may other things in one. I then break down after I actually heard that. I did not know actually wht I was crying for, is it joy or sadness? Afterall, I thanked God for putting away the fear and casting it out of me. Thank you Lord! Amen!
Gladys :P
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.: Broken. :.
`val here. <3
Warning: Whatever you read here, do NOT ask me about it in church, on sms, on phone, on msn, etc and do NOT tell my brother anything. [In case you do not know, my brother is Daniel. If you know somebody called Daniel and you are not sure whether he's my brother, just don't say a word.]
My mother has just broken a bottle of my father's perfume which cost nearly a hundred dollars. It was only three-quarters full. And I don't know why I feel like, heart pain [xim tia] for it, although I didn't pay for it.
The other day when I was in the car with my parents [they were fetching me from tuition], I overheard my father talking to my mother. It's about the Germans buying over his company. His pay will be the same, but he might have to travel more. My father hates travelling. His friend might talk to their old company [they were from the same companies; new and old] to let them join them again. However, the pay will be cut into half. Upon hearing it, I was like, what will happen?
There is this old couple, around 60 over years old. They are my parents' cell group leaders. Both of them are always having lunch/dinner with my parents, and when bill time comes, they sit back to let my father pay the bill. The man is always like that. For the lady, sometimes she will feel paiseh then she will pay. RARELY. I mean, what the heck?! The other time when they had a cell group gathering in Malaysia, I was there. During lunch I was with my father and all the ladies went shopping. Basically, it means that the wife of that couple wasn't present; she was shopping, naturally. And when my father bought food for me, the man was waiting for my father before he "accompanied" my father to buy his food. When they came back, they came back with two bowls. One belonged to my father and the other belonged to the man. [My father doesn't eat much.] Not surprisingly, obviously the bill was paid by my father, as usual.
Overall, don't you find it too much?! [P.S: Is this considered gossiping? zZz. Reply at the tagboard with your name, and label it "Broken". Basically, the answer I want is just "yes/no". Don't give me some crap with all the junk and all the lectures, etc etc. I'm sick of it.]
My mother is a big spender. I won't elaborate on this. Sometimes, I wonder why she buys this and that even when she's not using. I mean, money doesn't drop from the sky, right?
I repeat. Do not ask me ANYTHING about this post in msn, church, sms, call, ETC ETC. I don't care how and I don't care what. I'm too pissed off now. If you want to delete this blog because it's full of rubbish and crap, do it. I don't care. It's just to vent my frustrations. And when I have my frustrations and I vent it on blogs, I appreciate people like, consoling me, but not OVERBOARD. Some people are, you know. All those crap questions can drive you mad, especially when you are ALREADY PISSED OFF. Yeah, whatever.
Crap. My brother's in this room. Gtg. Byee.
`val signing off. <3
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.: Thoughts On Miracle Catch :.
On the 25th June of 2006, it was the Miracle catch day. On that day during the youth service almost about 50-60% of the expo was filled with people. Many were also being blessed on that day. But sadly to say, I did not bring any friends down. I was rejected by them as they claimed that they were actually busy and wasn't allowed to get out of the house. That really break my heart. However I knew it wasn't only that day that was the miracle catch. Every Sunday will be a miracle catch, people coming to receive christ. By prayer I knew that everything from impossible would be possible. I believe and that one day, I would being friends down to church every sunday. Amen!
Gladys
Me blogged @ | 4:55 PM
hey Family!!
hahaz..this is the end of the week & i m here tO Blog!! =)
this week has been a challenging week for Me!!! Ah, i wana Spend time with my Ah Ma(Yes, i know U are reading This) & My sisters...
Yes..Had mY exams & my Guitar Rehearsal this week.. & Bd celebratiOn..
hahaz..wana Bless U all with
1 Tim 4:16 "... Persever in them, because if You Do, you will save both yourself & your hearers."
hahaz, i think it speaks to me as i come across this verse..
so i m gg to Persever Hard even till the End of the Yr =) in all areas of my Life!!
alsO, to the sisters, i think some of us received the Sms from the 82222*** ... thanks for the Sms , i think i love receiving such Sms!! =) it struck me hard!!
"We r where we r 2day bcOz some1 bothered 2 kp prayin & rchin out to us. if Jesus & the spiritual Family nvr gv up on us, we must NEVER give up on ourselves when in difficult moments."
"With God, we R always winner. Gv up & we will always b loser in Life. Mk a choice today 2 b a winner 2day"
hahaz, Ya Lor.. i Love this spiritual Family! =) this Family that God has especially placed! First, we must all recognise that this is Family that God has placed us in & designed for uS.. Secondly, we must all mk an effort to Love, encourage, find out abt each other lives.. Just drop a Sms or Two yar... how many times do we drop the sisters or Ah ma a sms or chat w her Msn? or hv we given most of our Sms/ talk time tO other ppl than to this Family? =)
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Say Cheeze.. the formal class photo! 