.: Who Am I ? ( by Casting Crowns) :.
Me blogged @ | 11:27 PM
.: Camp Zero! :.
Yes it came and gone and I can say I really enjoyed myself the past 3 days! Enjoyed the fellowship, the small talks together, the message shared, the thanksgiving, the crazy things we laugh over * Wake up, oh you sleeper* Haha! Well all these will be remmebered by down the road and these memories will be cherised closely to my heart!
Thank you so much my dear daughters and grandaughters! Each and everyone of your presence at cell advance really means a lot to me. Seeing the few of you raising up to take various roles really warms my heart and indeed it is a pleasure that you serve along side me and EJ. Each one of you have done well! Keep it up! I am so proud of you!
Having to share 2 sessions during this cell advance, with the fact that I have been so pack back to back during this june Holiday, I am also amazed at myself for being able to preach the two message. It has definitely to be God and the Holy Spirit guiding me, if not I would not have been able to prepare all that is needed to be shared so quickly. I can admit, I am normally very slow in all these. Therefore through this, it really thought me to draw nearer and to be dependent upon the Lord much more, as if not.. I have no horse run as well! Haha...
There are many new faces in the family this year, and this cell advance is also slightly different in a way only me and EJ organising, however I felt the entire atmosphere and environment was very different. I LOVE the 3 boys under Alvin! Ahhhh so cute! Haha... For all I know, and also following up after the youth camp, I am able to know the guys better!
Thank you once again my dear daughters and granddaughters for the words of appreciation and affirmation which you spoke to me on the last day! My heart cried as I heard those words from your mouth! It has been a paintaking journey for me, but I never once looked back or regretted having each and everyone one of you in this family, to love you, to care for you, to be there for you! It is the joy of motherhood! I want to be a Physical mother as well! Yeh! Haha..
Do continue to keep that attitude of encouragement to each other, and support one another in times of need, as it is only in the body where we wont start to drift so far away from the Lord! Lets be committed to be seeing each other still together 10 years down this road! Lets run strong!
Lots of love
Ju Le Ah Mi and Ah Mah!
Me blogged @ | 9:36 PM
.: Day out at Sentosa! :.
Me and my Students!
Jessica and Daughters!
Joadine and Daughters!
Sand Castle Building!
The Girls, under the sun sand and sea!
A shot before we leave Sentosa!
I believe those who came had a good pure time of fun, and fun! Haha.. well guess many were burnt by the Sun! I did even when I put Sunblock! Haha!
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.: Si Jia Thanksgiving and Reflection! Battlefield 2007 :.
Youth camp has always leaved behind a learning point as well as a start-up point for me. This year youth camp played a different learning point for me and indeed God has mould me in a special way.
I thank God for putting me as part of the committee this year. It has been a goal which I have set since last youth camp and really thanks God for answering this request. Apart from that, think it is not by chance that my spiritual mother was the camp commander; it’s really God’s hand upon it, leading her to be the camp commander. And because of this, I dare to approach her to be in the committee.
Being assigned to be in the game committee is something I ask God NOT to put me in, but in the end I was being part of it. I was afraid initially because this is something fresh to me. I was trained to be camp leader or camp committee in other area since poly but not in the game com before because I always choose to escape in this area as I find that the game com people are always the one who need to really bomb their brain and come out with games that must attract the camper. It’s a big challenge to me. I thank God for the encouragement; I have in mind of requesting to change to other area but God affirm me that I am not going to be a loser in this area and I must step into this area for this is where he want me to be so as to mould me for the path ahead of me.
I was glad to work closely together with Naterlie and Steven. It’s really amazing for the three of us to come together because the three of us was equipped with totally different personality. Things were not easy initially. Due to our different schedule, we often cannot arrange a time suitable for us to meet together. Therefore, we often have to meet out late and end late. Time seem not enough for us as we were not only meeting out often but also spending lots of time at home rushing out the proposal. Our fellowship built up and we became more engage with the planning and the proposal. Often, we seem so satisfy with our work but still face rejection during the meeting as there’s always flaw in our work. Sometimes, we do feel bit discourage but it’s really God’s hand upon us that he continue to enlighten us up with new and sudden idea, improving to the previous one.
Finally, the camp arrived. Games do crop up with slight mistake here and there during the camp, making me sometimes worried and panicked over what is the next step to do. I was often disappointed at how others don’t recognised the effort we put in and there’s negative commend on parts and parts of the game. And it’s during this period when I felt a sense of disappointment; the Lord shows me one very important flaw in my character which is fighting for the approval of other.
Since poly, I have build up a very ambitious character due to the harsh training we have in our leadership program. Often, the training is very tough to us as they are training us to be a strong leader in leading the freshmen camp. Therefore, during the training we, the leaders all seem to be competing against one another in term of our leading quality and our physical being. I was often the losing part in term of physical training as I cannot run well. And due to these three years of harsh training, I was very mindful of how other recognised my effort in everything I do. But the lord softens me during this youth camp. I remember during one of my bicycle ride from one station to another during the telematch, there was a very strong feeling whereby the entire committee members name just fleshed across my mind. At this moment, the lord wants me to slow down my pace and observed what the other committee members and facilitator were doing. I realised that there’s only one goal in each and every one of them; to do their best for this camp.
I thanks God for showing me this. It make me realise that one effort is not enough and power only come when all unite and work together with a similar goal in mind; making the camp a success. Often, we are overrun by our own effort and wanting others to recognise the effort you put in but the lord tells us that why not just stop and recognising other’s effort first. Only when you have witness the effort by each and everyone, then you will realise that it’s not you or her that make the camp possible but its us using the spirit that God has poured into us together that make miracle happens.
Me blogged @ | 10:09 PM
.: Michelle Thanksgiving and Testimony - Battlefield 2007 :.
This is my 2nd yr involving in the youth camp as a facilitator. I really feel bless by being a facilitator this time again as the games and activities for this youth camp are tough and “torturing”! However, I felt happy of being a facilitator again for this year is not because I can torture my team members (I’m not that evil) but I am able to learn more about the youths and prepare myself for a higher level of leadership skills.
I do not exactly torture my members during those tough activities but I challenge them instead. I tried being soft and encouraging during the first day of the night walk but my group members took me for granted and they do not listen to me. Then I learned to more firm with my discipline. On the 2nd day, during the station games, I heard 1 of my member complaining that he wanted to give up even when the game barely started. I immediately stopped the whole group and challenged them if they wanted to give up the whole thing or continue. The choice is theirs. Then, my group encouraged one another and continued the race. On the 3rd day, the last event of the breakthrough run is good as I really ‘push’ my team members. I challenge them again.
From this camp, I feel that youths need to be challenged. Some or rather most of them will want to prove to you that they are capable of doing it when they are challenged. By challenging them, it gives them the determination of all the more they must succeed. However, there is a certain extend that they are afraid of failure. When they fail, they feel discouraged, they feel disappointed and eventually they give up. At this time, we (Facilitators, Leaders) have to come and encourage them. I even told my ‘stories’ to them of how I was when I was young. They may seem not interested at that time you were sharing, but truth is, they listened. They need us to inspire them, to encourage them and to teach them.
Sometimes I feel that this is more of a leadership camp. For people like me, I took this opportunity to learn and understand the youths better and learn how to deal with difficult situations. I learned a lot. I felt better at facilitating this year compared to last year. If there is a choice to choose between being a facilitator or camper for the next youth camp again, I would definitely still choose to be a facilitator.
Me blogged @ | 10:00 PM
.: reflection on youth camp :.
thank God for today!
hahas.
met up with wai yin and had a good talk with her=)
thank God for His Spirit, for guiding me through even as i speak to her.
and i am gonna claim it by faith that she learnt and take in everything that i had said to her.same goes to yuping!=)
but in anyways,i thank God for His very presence when i was with ping and wai wai.
i really enjoyed spending time with my two precious daughters!=)
thank God for their lives!
yups.
anyways,
woah.
talking about youth camp,
hahas!
i really enjoyed myself can?
i could just put down everything that's in my mind to play my heart out!
hohohos.
jealous right?
lols!
actually what i got from the youth camp during ministry was just something simple.
we need to see in ourselves what God sees us.
felt that this is the simplest thing yet the most difficult to look at.
get what i mean?
hahas.
meaning this was the most simplest and easiest thing that can get into our head but,
it was also the most difficult truth that can be received.
not that we cannot received.
is that we dunno and are not convicted.
just a simple thing like, "we are God's children."
very easy to understand,
very easy to rmb,
very easy to get into our head.
but how much do we believe in it and receive this truth,
is another thing.
yups.
and i think this is something that i really need to learn.
i always told myself i am not brought to this world by chance.
but times and again,
i am deceived by the devil.
my parents are busy.
especially my father.
though under the same roof,
but the chances of seeing each other is 2/7 a week.
as for my mother,
recently when we see each other,
we had nothing to talk about.
as if having cold wars.
sometimes the moment she sees me she will just tell me off.
i am not close to any of my brothers at all.
no one to turn to in the family.
i am a very optimistic person in all things except for my family.
the devil knows it and he is smart.
i was blinded by the devil again that my parents don't love me,
don't care about me and blah blah blah.
putting it into simpler terms,he's pulling all my sad memories out.
of course,
i did something that opened the door for him to do so.
questioned God.
yups.
i didn't guard my heart well is one thing.
but the most important thing that i failed to recognise and believe was that i am not born by chance!
hence when it comes to family issue,
i was easily put off guard and the devil could just attack me by getting hold of this area!
yups.
can understand? hahas.
so, please see that you are WORTHY and SO MUCH to Christ!=)
worship on sunday was powerful for me.
right there at where i stand,
God ministered to me.
He was so gentle.
He brought me though all that had happened in my household,
from the very day i received Christ til now.
thereafter, God asked me, "my daughter, are you still going to worship me?"
i did not answer God but just kept crying as the worship continues with the song,
'Jesus, Lover of my soul'.
[Jesus, Lover of my soul
Jesus, i will never let you go.
You taken me,
From the miry clay,
You set my feet upon the rock,
Now i know..
I love You, I need You.
Though my world may fall i'll never let you go..
My Saviour, My closest Friend,
I will worship You
Until the very end..]
when the song ended, God just asked me again,
"my daughter, are you still going to worship me?"
and i cried out to God, "Yes, Father, but please help me!"
God is really good i tell you.
the song after this was the one that "hit" me.
it goes something like...
[ i really want to worship You my Lord,
You have won my heart and i am Yours,
so i lift my voice to You
in adoration...]
i knelt before the Lord,
and as i knelt down,
He said to me, "because I love you, I will never let you go, nor will i forsake you."
after that eejay came over to pray for me and he said something like this also and it was from the Lord.
i couldn't help but just cried.
God is so real!
i can just sense God beside me when eejay was praying for me.
there's so much thanksgiving in my heart!!!
sunday sermon was just in time,
so for me?
hohohos.
at the end of the sermon,
felt that i need the Lord to help me to open up my spiritual eyes and to claim His purposes for me in my family and that i may look at my family in the eyes of the Lord and not mine.
in addition,
i felt that there's a need for renewal of my mind and conviction of my heart to believe that i am part of God's big plan=)
hence, i went forward during the altar call.
yups.
thank God for His unfailing love.
indeed,
my DADDY loves me!
wo de tian fu ai si wo! ;))jessica=))
Me blogged @ | 12:46 AM
woohOo! jOa is here to Blog! =)
okie, let's start from the 20 May 07 tt Sunday Srv, Ps shared about Brokeness- the Gateway to Blessing. Ultimate brokeness. guess must b real painful..hahaz
i think it 's very hard 4 me to b broken.. only God can mk me till tt level =)
i m afraid of Pain.. hahaz.
However, Great Ppl Get broken by God completely!
i wana b one of God's great ppl! i kn i m in the process..
small jOa, Big God! =)
anyway, i did the multiple intelligence test & found out tt i m much very least INTRA-person & VERBAL lingustic.. gosh, i m so upset.. hahaz. tt explains how come sometimes i thk also gt no results..
i m very upset..
anyway, durin the worship in YAYPAO 144 Leaders' Meeting ,on 23 May 07 Wednesday.
God spoke to me, " why do u ever despise God creation?"
at that moment, i m back to the self tt i m his creation! & a wonderful one =)
God, forgive me!
then i asked God, if i m not intra-person(one who thk abt matters), how can i mother ppl & kn their issue? God simply spoke " ask me & u will get he wisdom"
Gosh, tt is God! =) i know.. He is such a Big God who kn everything abt me.. he kn tt i hv quite Short term memory so he will ans me fast (at times) so will leave a lasting impression & impact on me! He is so gracious.. i dnt deserve his reply.. but he do so coz He simply kn i nd it he loves me! =D
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even last Sunday 10 June, Ps Nina shared about ESTER. now i hv a greater understanding on my place & a purpose for me on Earth..
i read a book tt said tt often we R so self - centered, thinking the whole universe evolved coz of us... tt we actually forget tt it evolved coz of God! the one who create it...
also, the only one who kn truely what our purpose is is our CEARTOR!
the creator kn what u r created for, the created simply nd to fulfill tt!
anway, i kn a little bit why God is putting me thru this rough journey, the background tt i hv.. He wants me to hv victory in Him! so tt at the end of the day, i just share w ppl my testimonies & having victory in those coz of Emmanuel!
i m waiting for tt day to Glorify him w my testimonies! till then , i m wring towards it! =D
thank You Abba Father! i kn i m well loved! =)
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Me blogged @ | 9:43 AM
.: youth camp post. :.
hey family!
WOOHOO! finally can blog!
((:
im gonna post about youth camp for the benefit of those who didn't go. im going to post about how i feel and what i've learnt. ((:
well, i think i've really learn a lot through this camp lorr. God really set me free yeahh.
initially to tell your the truth, i didn't really quite enjoy. WHY???
cos my grp members were all very very quiet. and there was a lack of communication compared to other grps lorr. so i was like thinking: HUH? why my grp lidat one? God, must save me ah. my grp so boring.
and i was feeling so bored. so i decided to talk to them. so when i started to talk to some of them, there were improvements cos then some of them started to talk. BUT, there were still a few quiet ones who still didn't talk much. and so i told myself.. nvm.. continue to interact with the grp and things will improve. and indeed things did improve. was proud of the grp and really thank God for the "NVR GIVE UP" spirit He gave me. yeahh yeahh. ((:
one thing huiyu shared with me on the way home when i shared with her this was:
AM I REALLY TOO RELIANT ON OUR CELL THAT I FIND IT DIFFICULT TO STEP OUT OF MY CONFORT ZONE AND TALK TO PEOPLE?
ya. think its quite important for us to ponder upon this question lorr. when some of us realise that we dont have any cell members in our grp, how did we felt? did we bother to go talk to people we dont know and make friends? or did we just sit there and shake leg? i think this is one thing i've learnt. TO STEP OUT OF COMFORT ZONE AND TALK TO PPL I DONT KNOW! ((:
i really really enjoyed ministry. the part which ej later shared about your parents always dont think your e best or smth lidat.. i just felt so much of God's presence at dat time. i just cried. wah! ((: i think at home for me, difficult to really love and feel loved. But at dat time when Ps Adrian read the letter, i just wept. I knew that i had nothing to be afraid of cos i had a God that loved me so much. God is going to continue to use me mightily! IM TRUSTING GOD! =D
2nd day of ministry, mama actually asked me to be part of the trial for the 100k and i was like. YAY! i wan2 go out and bless.
BUT frankly speaking, i was scared. i had the fear of rejection in me. i feared that people would just shoo me away. so it was just so timely that Waimun, one of Ps YC's 12, shared about receiving the Holy Spirit. and i knew that at dat time God will be with me. Holy Spirit will fill me with a heart of compassion to bless those people out there. and again, i just felt God's love embrace me lorr. yeahh. felt so loved and felt so much of the Holy Spirit.
when i actually went out to bless, got rejected a lot of times. i paired up with denise. and we were both quite despair le. but we just told each other its ok. KEEP TRYING! i just kept praying on the way, telling God: God, help us to even not give up and continue to look for people to bless! ((: and finally, the last 5 mins, we saw a boy and we manage to bless him! with the water and prayer! the boy even asked for extra prayer request besides those in the pamphlet. felt so much JOY! =D
so just wan2 thank God for the weather during the camp. Thank God for mama! Cos she really put a lot of time and effort into the camp and also those who went.
huiyu's girls esp. really just seeing them there brings so much warmth and joy to my heart. ((:
yeahh lorr.
think its a really long post. will share more during cell on wed. =D
LOVE YA ALL!
take care!!!
LOVE,
adeline
Me blogged @ | 10:07 AM
.: YA 144 Reflection - Michelle :.
Pastor YC spoke about the steps and preparation to disciple youth/young adults and the processes which we all have to learn and remember when we are rising up as leaders for the future generation.
We first need to understand the difference between a leader/adult and a child/disciple. It’s true that a child likes to be self-centered and in most cases, they wanted power. This applies normally to teenagers where they are in the position of “power” and I termed this as the stage of rebellion. I was once also a teenager where I defy an even rebel against my parents. My friends then were more important in my life. I shared everything with my friends and a home is only a place where I can rest or sleep where my problems are never discussed at all.
However, a leader has to first be aware of their rights and responsibility and also has the ability to prioritize between rights and responsibility. In this case, leaders must know that their responsibility is more important than their rights at times. I know that being a leader cannot pleases everyone but to be able to be firm with your decision taking in consideration of the whole welfare is such an example of responsibility. Of course we too are humans and have empathy on our people sometimes but situations sometimes do not allow us to let our emotions be carried away and I termed this as the ability of able to prioritize between rights and responsibility. Whatever circumstances, a leader must be able to control their emotions, able to process their thoughts first before doing what is needed to lead the members.
The phrase ‘Death to self, Life to others’ also applies to a leader. I also term it as an act of responsibility as a leader always has to put another before her/him. An example is a father always protects his daughter/son. He will always not let any harm come upon them and will shield them from danger. A leader must be able to understand that most of us have the ability to inspire the young people through what we have done or spoke or even who we are.
No doubt, ALL of us need motivations! I used to feel motivated when I got medals, awards or recognition from people around me. Not to mention that I still feel motivated when I got affirmation from my sisters, spiritual mother or friends. I realized that my motivation is a sense of satisfaction or goals which I wanted to achieve. I feel good when I am affirmed. I feel good when people praise me. In short, I feel great when I am able to achieve my goals.
Yes! Different genders and age people have different motivations. But a youth motivation can changes quickly and is normally greatly influence by the society, from the television programmes and the people around him. Therefore, I agreed with Pastor YC that it is important to help youth discover who they really are and what is their purpose in like. In such way, then leaders are able to influence them with related motivations in their life.
Me blogged @ | 10:34 AM
.: reflection on YA 144 meeting=) :.
thank God for today=)
thank God for today's message.
it's really good.
thank God for His reminder.
Proverbs 3:5-6.
well,
the Young Adult 144 meeting was really good!
learnt many things from there.
but need to process a lot.
after much processing,
the 2 main things i've learnt was from the story of salmon fish.
first, we need to ‘die’ in order to let the lives of our children flourish!
this is a challenge to be a parent.
in connection to the sermon on Sunday,
Pastor Khong mentioned that the only way up is DOWN.
in order to be spiritually up, we need to be broken by God again and again,
and be brought to the very bottom of our spirit.
the NEW self can only be ALIVE when the OLD self is DEAD.
yups.
the story of salmon also tells us the reward of self-denial in Philippians 2:9-11.
we will all reap what with sow.
when we sow with tears, we will reap with joy!
pastor mentioned, "no tears, no 12!"
hahas!
yups.
with self denial comes reward of God=))
self denial = God's promotion.
Jesus Himself was a very good example of self example.
and this is the reward of parenting! =))
hohohos.
bearing a child is not easy.
but parenting is not any easier.
teaching however isn't any better
but discilpining is the most challanging part for parents.
i've embarked onto this journey.
and i hope that many will board this ship that i am on now that we may see lives after ours and lives after lives be blessed because of our life!
i am only a mother of two spiritual daughters.
am believing God for multitudes=))
on and all, the very one thing that keep flashing through my mind after the meeting was something that Pastor Yeang Cherng said on the Wednesday’s night before we left, “We got to plough and plough when we are young, plough like there’s no tomorrow.” I don’t know why, but this sentence just kept flashing through my mind. And every time when it flashes through my mind, I think of my girls, I think of two of my juniors (wsss). Think God is trying to tell me something? Hahas!=)
jessica
Me blogged @ | 12:49 AM
A shot before we leave Sentosa!
