alrights! hahas. thank God for today's o-level MT papers. hehes. it's over! yes!!! and i'm leaving it up to God liaos. hehes
anyway, am here to post my o-level papers time-table. however, i gotta do this REAL fast. now using my second brother's computer. (caz my eldest bro's computer is spoilt!) gotta finish typing before he comes home. otherwise, i will be dead! hehes.
yups. here we go!:::
31/10 --- chemistry practical (0800) 06/11 --- e.maths paper 1 (0800) --- combined humanities paper 1 (0800) 08/11 --- english paper 1 (0800) --- english paper 2 (1015) 09/11 --- biology paper 1 (0800) --- biology paper 2 (0930) --- geography paper 2 (1400) 10/11 --- e.maths paper 2 (1430) 14/11 --- a.maths paper 1 (1400) 15/11 --- physics paper 1 (0800) --- physics paper 2 (0930) --- geography paper 1 (1630) 16/11 --- a.maths paper 2 (0800) --- chemistry paper 1 (1400) --- chemistry paper 2 (1530) 17/11 --- combined humanities paper 2 (1430)
alrights. above is my o-levels time table. hehes. pray for me eh? thanks you all in advance first eh? kekes. having three papers on some of the days. hehes.
signing off.. j.e.s.s.i.c.a=))
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Saturday, October 28, 2006
.: The Father's Heart! :.
Even as I saw this short video, tears just cant help but flow down my eyes to be reminded of the goodness of the Lord and the heart of our Father, how much love that is overflowing upon our lives. Even as you view it, take time to reflect and allow this video to minister to your heart!
Me blogged @ | 11:29 AM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
.: Footprints of my life! :.
Somthing which I used as my madian post for the launch of my new blog (juju1728.blogspot.com). Do check it out. But then thought I will also post it here to let you all take a look at the me since young! Enjoy!
Just got a news from My G12 mother that one of my g12 sister's dad passed away, and was sudden. When I saw that sms, I was stun, shocked! The first thing that came to my mind was definitely is she ok? I was just with her less then 4h ago and things then was still ok.
Even as I went to watch the show "World Trade Centre" 3 days ago, the same question also struck me. We will never know what is going to happen just the next sec, the next min. With different lives illustrated in the show, it really shows that they went about their daily things that day as usual, but to find out just few hours into the morning, they will have ended themselves up lying in the ruins, struggling to stay alive. It was also then where they started to realised what they have not done, wat they should have done and how important the people around them were.
Just like I only saw my sister just a while ago, and now I hear the news of her dad. I believe to her it will definitely be something more shocking, but it made me realised the reality of the urgency of the time. I mean every sec makes a difference, especially for someone struggling to live. Most importantly, if we have be able to share of the knowldege of the Lord Jesus Christ to him? Thankfully here, my sis's dad is a believer and she at least can take heart to know that she will be able to see him in heaven.
It made me realise the urgency to share the gospel to my family members. Just a while ago, there once again was a 'war' in the house, dad was not happy with my sis as she did not make an effort to make full use of her time in revision. Actually this has been a common thing for argument in the house during this season, since my sis O levels are round the conner. For me, I just do not like it when voices get raised at home, and when my dad gets angry. I always try to ease the tension and in a way try to make things better during these times. However at times, I will just stay in the room and cry out to the Lord in prayer. I do not like all these, I do not understand how best I can help, but each time when these happen, all I know is that my parents need to know God. However for the matter just now, I actually got rather heated up and got a little mad over why my dad has to get angry over this and then come and nag at me, as if I am in the wrong. I knew I should not have got mad and guess it just adds on to the things that my dad is unhappy about with me. I know I need to be of a good testimony at home, such that they can see the God in me. I did try many times, and every time when tought time hits, it is really not easy! Even as I come to realise all these, I repented and just come at the feet of Jesus and really tell God I do not know what is best I can do to win my family, to let them know you, and I know time is ticking by...... God I really want my family to be save and I believe the best thing I can do is to pray and trust in you!
Lets work while it is still day and not wait for night to come, as in the night we cant work already and it will be too late then!
Me blogged @ | 9:37 PM
Friday, October 20, 2006
hey Family , this is the timetable for my A level..just updating U All =) it is drawing nearer *sweat sweat* dnt mention the word to me, i m sensitive.. hahaz..
in the month of Nov, i guess u all can most probably catch me hiding in tampines.. hahaz.. tryin hard to stare at notes, books , our famous TYS.. hahaz..can come visit me with BUBBLE TEA, foOd or even pillows =X hahaz.. i better nt step out of Tmp unnecessary.. anyone can scold me if i do that =) u hv tt right.. hahaz i duno how prepared i m .. just tt a few Maths formular still not familiar, difficulties doin Differentiation Equation, Some Bio Chps yet to familiarise, some TYS qns yet to attempt, oraginc Chem is still blur blur.. if not for all these, i think i can la.. hahaz..
i wana mk my Daddy in Heaven proud of me.. i wish i can..=)
here it goes... timming not included.. hahaz.. coz wana u all pray whole day for me.. **Evil Smile**
02102006 GP P1 & P2
07102006 BIO P2 & MATHS P1 08102006 CHEM P3 09102006 MATHS P 2
14102006 CHEM P 2 17102006 CHEM P 1
20102006 BIO P 3 23102006 BIO P 1
Guess what.. my A level drags till 4 weeks.. Argh.. some can play aft 3 weeks.. why i like tt?!!!! hahaz.. but gd in a way.. more spread out, more preparation.. okok, i m not complaining.. hahaz.. Yeah!! im gg crazy w the PRINCESS HOUR.. so on 23102006 , 1000 hours, i m gg to FAN (irritate) my frd to lend me his VCD.. hahaz i dnt care & iL b campin at Jess pl to watch it!! JESS, HOR?! *winkz winkz* for those who r keen, pls sign up with Joa & drop me a Sms
Love U All..
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
.: Graduation Day! :.
Check out all these cool pic I took with my students on their Graduation Day! It was such a touching time.. not sure if they did cry? Haha but me just listening to the sharing and thanksgiving of the teachers even touched me. It also reminded me of my own graduation back then in Sec 4, however I did not have such a grand one! Haha...
Woh! I saw this video shown before during one of the extrem held sometime back ago. Thought it was really funny! Haha.. maybe next time we can all learn this dance and also use it as icebreakers for new people in our cell. Haha.. Enjoy and may it release those who are super stress with exams!
Me blogged @ | 9:17 PM
.: A Unique G12 meeting :.
Talking about knowing more about the opposite gender! So guess what My G12 sisters and brothers actually came up with? A meeting of the married ladies with the single guys and the married guys with the single girls. Since there were more ration of the married guys with single ladies, hence this team was split into two. From what I hear, I think the other team went to vivo city, while my team had dinner at Lemongrass along East Coast Road. The other team with the single guys had their meeting, just few stalls aways down from where we had our dinner, coffee club Express. Anway for this team, one very unique thing that happen was there were altogether 8 of them and ended up they all came in matching colors of pairs, and this was all without planned! WOH! We were shocked when we saw them. Well it was a good time to hear the married guys share with us what they went through and for me I was asked some of the normal Questions on what kind of guy I like, do I have any one in mind, or what are the qualities that I look for in my future husband. There were also some questions that was asked which made me think through and they are also questions which allowed me to understand more about myself as well. Yeh althought it was not easy to answer some of them, but some how it made me realised more about what I really am looking for in my future partner. Haha.. they offered to help me find.. but well... maybe maybe maybe....
yups. am here to blog again! hohoho. thank God for His unfailing love! Praise God for that.
had a little chat with mr prakash. hahas. the first thing he asked was, "who's that in the picture? you brother or your father?" (my display picture is a photo of me and my spiritual father, Guanghan.) hahas. "my spiritual father," i said. i explained to him what is meant by "spiritual father" after that. then i asked him, " we look alike?" and he said, " a bit!" yeah=)) kekes. of course we look alike! father and daughter lehs! hehes.
anyway, just wanna ask everyone 2 questions.
#1. if you have a choice now, what do you wanna be? (i)a child, whose kingdom of heaven belongs to you OR (ii)an adult who serve?
#2 (i). if you had chosen to be a child, why? (ii).if you had chosen to be an adult, why? and who you choose to serve? and why?
yups yups. these are the two questions! for those who are interested, please give a careful thought. and let me know of your answer. you can either sms me or tag at my blog yea? hehes. thanks!=))
for those who are not interested, it's okiies ya? no worries! kekes.
in case you are wondering why am i doing this, hahas. i will tell you in my next post! but FIRST, i need your answer!=)) thanks alot! kekes.
jessica;))
Me blogged @ | 2:20 AM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
.: Where will you be? :.
When the Repture comes, where will you be? Something so real, something that is mentioned in the bible. Lets really live each day as it will be the last and start sharing this love that God has for us to those around us. Lets wallk our life right in the Lord.
Me blogged @ | 10:49 PM
.: Satan knows the Scripture WELL! :.
thank God for today English lesson! it's wonderful. i had a great time=)) hahas. Mr Barton is so cute! he's so funny. hehes. thank God for both my spiritually and earthly parents.
yes! it's me AGAIN! hehes. the cute and adorable girl, miss jessica! *wink wink* ;)) hahas. actually wanted to post yesterday. but i just can't log in. arrgh! hahas. bLehs=P
alrights. today, i want to share with everyone my quiet time with God. yups. but before i begin, i want to ask you something. Do you know the Word of God WELL? well, if you don't, then are you aware that Mr SA-Tan knows the Scripture WELL?! whoa!
yes. satan knows the Word of God WELL. let's turn our bibles to Psalm 91:11-12. it says," for He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up so that you will not strike your foot against a stone." for the benefit of those who do not have a student bible, it explains that about satan and bible in verse 12. it is stated in the guide of the student bible that satan knows the Scripture. he (satan) quoted this promise to Jesus when tempting Him to spiritual arrogance. however, Jesus recognised that satan had twisted its meaning.
in Matthew 4:6, satan tried to use this promise (Psalm 91:11-12) of Scripture, and twisted its meaning to tempt Jesus. it says, "if you are the Son of God,” he (satan) said, "throw yourself down. for it is written: 'He will command His angels concerning you, and they will lift you up in the hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.' "
many times, we are also easily drawn into the lies of the devil, who is capable of twisting God's promise to us. especially in times of trials when we are the most vulnerable to satan. be it family problems etc. we can be deceived by the devil EASILY, brain-washing us. we will found ourselves drawing away from God slowly and hearing 'funny' voices, " see, if God really loves you, He would not allow you to go through this!" soon, quiet time starts to be irregular, no interest in reading bible, and most importantly, we would stop PRAYING. we find ourselves feeling lost, our hearts harden.
however, i have got good news for you! ;)) God is a God of Goodness, remember? hehes. we can protect ourselves from the devil's lies by::
#1. spend time with God REGULARLY - our quiet time - God is passionate about His relationship with you. - He longs to be known by you. - He yearns or us. to yearn means to ‘long for intensely’ - spending time with God would draw us closer to Him, knowing Him better. - allows Him to speak to you.
#2. read the Bible REGUALRLY - the Word of Truth - doing quiet time alone is NOT enough. we must also read the Bible. - in order to protect ourselves from the lies, we MUST know the Scripture as WELL as or even BETTER than satan, just like Jesus who know the Father in Heaven WELL. -read Bible to gain knowledge and learn lessons from it. - useful in prayers---can use the promises of God to rebuke the devil if he tries to deceive us.
#3. PRAYING - powerful weapon. - pray the Jabez prayer! - ask God to place His hands upon you and that He will keep you away FROM the devils! - ask God to help you to guard you heart and mind. why? hahas. satan loves to destroy us by making our hearts and minds think wrongly.
yups. hehes. Psalm 91 encourages us to REST in God and notTEST God. which means, in darkness, all the more we should LET God. the word 'let' in dictionary means to ' leave everything up'. indeed. we should LET God. we should trust Him instead of worrying. worrying will only give satan a chance to seize you! God can handle. plus He has given us an invitation.(see Matthew 11:28-30)
some of us like to test God. "when?" you ask. when you see things that fascinate you! and you will tell God, "God if You are real, i pray that you will bless me with this!" (asking God for all your wants) if God didn't, many will tell God that He's not real. we, in turn, are LETTING satan.
to sum it up, we need to have a strong foundation of His words, know the Bible WELL to protect ourselves. ask God for forgiveness if you have been drawn into the devil's lies. trust me. God will forgive you for i have experienced it myself!;)) God has assured me again in Psalm 103:8. Praise God!
instead of telling you that God loves you, my spiritual father, Guanghan, will say, "Satan HATES you!"
P.S: thanks gege for all your encouraging messages! thanks a lot! love ya!=))
jessica=))
Me blogged @ | 1:35 PM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
.: Magic Of Love! :.
Have you seen it? Have you heard about it? Is it a Bird? Is it a plane? No it is the legendary Magician Lawrance Khong with his lovely daughter on the newspaper!
Initially when I first heard about it form one of my G12 sisters, I was rather excited to see what was actually written about him. Woh! when I went back and saw the newspaper, I was stun to see that there was a rather BIG article on him and his daughter, together with the beautiful picture! Amazing how just by magic, and the heart that Pastor has wanting to use it to reach out to people, actually did touch many lives and has achieved what it is today. All Glory be to God! I can at least say I had been part of this MOL team in Japan, and really thank God for giving me this special opportunity! It is really different to know that the works we did in Japan has not gone to waste, as I Believe there is much more exciting journey ahead in this country, the LAND OF THE RAISING SUN!
Do catch the copy of newspaper, 09/10/06 and spent time reading though what was written in the article!
Me blogged @ | 10:33 PM
.: do not forget in darkness what you have learnt in the light :.
alrights! thanksgiving time!=)) wanna thank God for today's wonderful blessings. thank God for His strength and wisdom=)) i was able to endure through the long school hours despite that i was really tired!thank God!=))
hahas. time for miss jessica to speak. opps.sorry sorry.wrong wrong. should be cute and adorable miss jessica. muahahahas.bLehs=P
yups. i experienced a ONE second blackout just now while doing my quiet time! unbelievable. the computer suddenly shut down and lights off. i guess it must be the work of the devil. hahas. he must be very angry that i listen and sing praise(worship) to God. yups. kekes. chatting with brother melvin now. who is also known as doctor lim. kekes.
well, i believe most of you had finish your exams? maybe except adeline?still having mock exams? hahas. tmr is the last day of school!(for my school) YEAH!
anyway, i had a little chat with julee mama just now. yups. hahas. told her about my encounter with God. so overwhelming! i asked her the meaning of: "do not forget in darkness what you have learnt in the light". yups yups.
as most of you know, i had gotten my prelims results.hahas. i guess most of the ppl especially my church bro-s and sis-s, would think that i had done well. hahas. not really actually. very disappointing(to me). especially my geography. i studied so hard for it. even my friends thought i would do well for geo paper. guess what? hahas. it ended up i got a C5 while most of my friends scored at least a B3 and some others, A2 and A1. i was really sad that day. i broke down and cried the moment i received my paper. i was stunned. i don't understand why. i can't understand in fact. i asked God, "why? why me?" i questioned God about His unfairness. however, when i got home, sat down and do my quiet time, God brought me to this again. "do not forget in darkness what you have learnt in the light". can you imagine how was i feeling? i was so ashame of myself. i felt so guilty for questioning God. i prayed and asked for His forgivessness that day. but some how, i was still troubled.
i had a long hours of chatting with joadine last satuday and i told her about this. i asked her if she knows the deeper and inner meaning of that sentence. yups. very chim. i know. hahas. she asked me if i had told mama. my answer was no. i told her that there was a fear in me. or rather, there seemed to be something that's stopping me from sharing with mama about this. thought of approaching my ah pa(guanghan) or gege(eejay) before. but again, i had the same feeling. joadine asked me to check if that "fear" is the fear of the Lord or other kinds of fear aftering sharing with her my feelings. da jie, thanks alot! thanks for listening to me!=)) thank God for you!
then on sunday after worship, pastor said something like "don't be deceived by the devil that you are not worthy to be His sons and daughters!" woah. everything seemed to unfold itself after that. God showed me that i had all these "troubles" and "fear" because i am not will to accept His forgiveness. it is I, who cannot forgive myself rather than God who had forgiven me when i asked for His forgiveness.so people, don't follow what your hearts says. i was easily deceived by satan by listening to my heart and trust that God did not forgive me. yups. there was a sense of affirmation that i was forgiven after yesterday's quiet time with God. God showed to me Psalm 86:5 and Psalm 86:15. thank God for His BIG and forgiving heart.
yups. i asked mama if this is something that God wanted to show me and put me through so that i would learn something and she said yes. she also said that the sentence is basically what i told her which is, we must not forget what we have learnt during the good times and forget them all in times of difficulties. she continued saying that even in times of trials, i need to always depend on God and remember what i have learnt especially during these times when i need to trust His words and press on! yups yups. hehes. understand it better now. thanks mama. thanks alot!
yes, indeed, i was very disappointed with my results. but nevertheless, God is GOOD!;)) yups! will press on for Jesus ,for God! i will cheong for Jesus! all the best to me! hahas. thank God for mama and da jie=)) i love you!BIG -hUgS-
good night. jessica=))
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Tuesday, October 10, 2006
.: Moving in faith! :.
" I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. So neither he who plants or he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow." 1 Cor 3: 6
This was part of what I shared at cell group last friday, simply the gist of it is that, God is the ultimate builder and provider for all things. He is the one who make things grow! He is a faithful God, but have we first been faithful in the little things which He has placed upon our lives. God will ultimately make the seed grow, however have we been faithful in watering and even to plant the seed in good soil. All these will factor in to how the tree will turn out at the end. I believe as long as we are faithful with the little things he place in our paths, we will soon come to experience the greater blessing which He has installed for us. Even as I held this verse in mind across this week, I reminded myself to be faithful even in the small things that God place in my journey with Him.
Initially for today, I had the opportunity to be back home early after work at school. Once step into the house, I felt a bit lazy to leave again and was also rather tired. I was suppose to go down to NUS for open cell that evening, and I would normally go down because either I can join in the run, if not I have a friend to meet or to bring down for cell. If not I might not go. For this week, I already did try to invite some of my contacts down for open cell or to meet me, however they all could not make it. I was a little disappointed and thought maybe really this time round, I will just stay at home. And with the high initial of the comfort of the house.. haha I took some time to consider if I should leave...
However I just did not felt right to be at home(since having to be out for dinner is rather a rare chance as well, haha), although I was tired, but could not really rest as I layed on the bed. So decided to get up and pray. Hence I seek the Lord, asking Him again if I should go down after all, even if I am not running and had no friend to bring down for open cell. Deep inside I just felt I should make my way down. Even as I was on my way down, the long train journey, I just kept praying my trip down will be a fruitful one. And to my suprise, I was queueing up at the 96 bus stop and guess what, I saw this freshmen of mine, whom I have tried inviting down for the past miricle catches and open cell a few times, was waiting at the bus stop as well.
Immediately I knew it was God's plan for me to come down to NUS today. As I approach her, I cant help but thank God for how he has placed it. Followed that, she was actually also meeting up with some other of the group members, whom I know. Thus we ended up having dinner together and just had a good time of catching up. Actually along the bus ride with this freshmen, I also had the chance to share with her my FYP testimony of how the grace of God brought me through. I believe it did impacted her in some ways. Well of course ended up I did not make it to hear the sharing at open cell, but I had the opportunity to meet up with the freshmen whom I have not been in contact for some time, only through SMS. praise God !
Woh indeed it is amazing how even as you just move in faith and to listen to the promting of the Lord, and even though I could not get any one down then, God brought me down still to meet someone without plan. I know I had been faithful in the small things which He layed upon me, which is to make a constant effort to link up with these people, and invite them down once in a while and hence He blessed me even to be able to meet unintentionally.
Have you been faithful in the small things that God placed in your life? Has He been the master builder in your house for the Lord? Have we been walking a life of faith?
Lets be Dreamers, Movers and Shakers for the Lord!
Me blogged @ | 10:35 PM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
.: Why Teach? :.
It has been coming to the end of the final term in sch and I have been teaching for about coming to 3 months. Throughout these months, it has been really an eye opener for me into the working world. I guess it is either me not actively finding out more of how is it like out there in the real world in the past, if not I just did not want to come to accept reality then that I have to start working. Well whatever it is, Yes, when you have to start working, means you have to start working... cant deny that fact. Haha.. just like when your exams are coming, you have to study means you have to study. I guess in teaching, we are still much more sheltered in a way, what happens very much is within the school.
Anyway why am I sharing all these, well it all started off from the very simple questions from my students. " Cher, why you want to come into teaching? Study to university already then how come still come into teaching?" or "Cher why you want to be a PE teacher? Good meh? Always run around everytime". Well just this simple question really brought me back to think much and was also a good time I felt to really look over if this is really where God wants me to go and also something which I am able to handle in future. True enought, when I was first asked the question, I was a bit toungue tight, not really very sure actually how best to answer it.
I took some time to reflect upon this and I realised it has been God's grace which had allowed me to be where I am and also this opening he have given to me. It was quiet a miracle on how my dad suddenly changed his perception to teaching and how he finally allowed me to go ahead in applying. Next I was not actually even offered the subjects which I wanted but still went ahead for the interview, and amazingly I was accepted and the subjects which I wanted also being offered to me. Even after I started teaching, I really struggled with getting up early and being energetic the whole day. Furthermore I am starting to sense that there is so much more admin things needed to be attend to by a teacher. Then also recently did not get very positive feedback form some of my collegues on some matters I did in school. Woh! So then frankly why do I still want to teach or be a teacher?
Even in the mist of all that, I know each time when I see the students, even if it is the playful, naughty and rebellious ones, I cant help but just have a heart for them. Dont really know how to describe it, but to put it short. I know even if I were not a teacher, I would be working in areas related to youths still.. as this is really where I sense I can impact lives and this is where God place His heart upon me for. Well I am the co form class of a Normal Tech Sec 3 class, and a subject teacher for a Normal Tech Sec 1 class, so if you are talking about facing the naughty students, I have seen them. I really enjoy the presense of the students and like what my collegue told me today.. I like to be around them.
So why do I become a teacher then? Simply because I love to be with the students and I want to impact their live with what I can give to them. I want to be a pastor in where God has place me! However even after what I went through thus far, I really can say there is so much so much more for me to learn, and so much so much more that God can use me in this area. I know this journey is only about to begain..
Stay tune for the next sharing....
Something on side... these few days I have been wearing more formal to sch, and with my new hair style.. students have been saying I should dress up more like this.. so affirming.. haha thanks students! Haha.... :P
Me blogged @ | 11:28 AM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
.: My students! :.
This is a bunch of crazy and enthu students of 5N1. Will miss their onz attitude towards P.E... Haha... will miss their noise as well...
Me blogged @ | 10:17 PM
.: Admin Admin.. Planning Planning... :.
Well if you all have know, I am not a person who likes to do many admin stuff as well as planning. Maybe I tend to think a lot when it comes to planning, and I am not a very step by step person, hence doing admin to me, I may end up being rather confuse myself....Maybe you can say I am more of an excuator and a follower. When I am asked to do things, I tend to be better at that. Strangely through my years in school, I have been called to leadership positions and with that comes much planning and admin work needed to do. Well guess those in the past were all still manageable, with the help of the committee. Why am I talking about all these? You must be wondering... The very thing is I have come to recognise I cannot run away form doing admin stuff, especially if you want to be in a leadership position. As recently besides having to mark all the papers of the students, I was thrown to plan, organise and come up with the post exam activities for the Sec 1 and Sec 2. Initially I happily took on the job, since I thought it was not so difficult to go about planning. Yeh and now I have been spending the last few days and nights, trying to come up with the fixtures, getting the instructions and the rules of the games as well as writing up the regristration form for the students and linking up with the student council to plan. If you look at it, I actually only know about this in the middle of this week which means I only have less then 1 weeks to plan. Worst thing is now the students are in the mist of their exams, hence passing information around is much more difficult. This is just a small part of what teachers need to do in terms of the admin matters to settle. I realised there is really A LOT of admin stuff that needs efficient planning and precious timing in handing work in when it comes to teaching. WOH! God has to put me through the many " I dont like admin.. I dont like admin"cries to make me understand, why He actually made me go through so many of these similar stuff in church is to kindof prepare me for my workplace. Recently the many events that is coming up for Church wise as well as the many planning and organising that needs to be put into running these events, really at first sight, can throw me out of my chair! However as I learn to tell myself, this is something I have to face and not run away from, or can never run away from, I am able to now look at it with a "I love admin" attitude! Haha.. I believe all these will not only test me but it will also build up a character within me, to learn to be efficient, to learn to think outside the box, to be precious in doing things and to build up my patience. May the Lord bless my first Major Project that I am orgainsing for the school. Although it is not really very big, but I will give it my best and YEH be the SALTand LIGHT of the school!
I LOVE ADMIN !!!
Me blogged @ | 9:45 PM
.: Isabel Happy Birthday :.
Have you seen such BIG Ice Kachang before? Haha.. yeh it is REAL! Thought wanted to bless Isabel with something unique, different and special on this wonderful day of hers! Believe we all had a good time eating this huge mountain and finally having to play "Zhong Ji Mi Ma" to sarbo people to finish eating. Can you imagine.. now with four people eating, we cant even finish up. The last time I had to eat this HUGE MOUNTAIN with only me and my sister... Haha.. I almost walk out of the food court becoming an ICE!
Me blogged @ | 9:40 PM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
.: House keeping of the Heart! :.
Doing the house hold chores have slowly become part of my daily things I do at home. Coming back home for dinner means I would be the one cooking and once you see cloths hanging up on the window grills means it is time for me to do the iorning. Saturdays are normally left to do the bigger cleaning up of the house, which is the sweaping and mopping of the whole house, and any other cleaning would be a bonus and addition. However even as I had to do all these form the beginning which I did not really like to do, over time it became normal to me and through this God did put me through to learn some lessons. One of them is that when you realised, although I can clean the house from top to bottom, it will never stay clean for long. I soon realised that as long as I kept the house resonably tidy, it appeared to be clean even when it wasn't. Gradually I concentrated on the appearance of a clean house and neglected thorough cleaning. This compromise was not only convinent, but also convincing. However when I look closely again, or when on sunny days, the clean-loooking house was revealed for what it was- dusty and dirty.
God Brought me to this verse: " You also appear righteous to men, but insdie you are full of hypocrisy" mat 23:28
In Jesus' day, the Pharisees were hyprocrites who concentrated on the appearance of holiness while neglecting their heart-holiness. When the light of Jesus shined on them, He revealed the truth about their outwardly religious life. He didnt say these external acts were necessarily wrong, but they were wrongfully used as a coverup for wickedness . For them, inner housecleanng was long overdue. What struck me was, keeping up appearance in our housework isn't wrong, but pretending our hearts are clean is. Only those who are clean on the inside will welcome Jesus with confidence when He returns. It brought light to the way I treated doing house work all these while, as in my heart to serve the family; and also upon the own condition of my heart, has it been really clean or just something on the oustide? Even as I seek the Lord on this, I come to realised I have grown to really want to serve my family, not with a grumbling heart, but with the heart of Jesus. The way I did things, and the attitude in which I went about doing did change and hence my parents also could understand and is starting to realise. Although I dont get good comments form my family when they come home at times, or smiles on their faces after all the effort which I put in, I personally knew that I have stored up treasures in Heaven and what I did pleases the Heart of God. That's of most importance. Secondly it also reminded me that I need to constantly make sure I clean every part of my heart and let it be pure and holy in the site of God, such that I would not be like the Pharisees who concentrated on the appearance of holiness. It is not about how many times you come to church, how many times you attend cell, how you worship the Lord (note I am not saying these are not important). But if our focus is on that, then we have short change oursleves of the larger and greater picture which God has installed for us. Like what was said before, not about the religious things we do, like getting the surface things cleaned, but about the character that God is molding within us, the constant cleaning up of the house. The process through cleaning the house is never easy, just like how we allow God to work through certain issues in our life, to clean us, will also not be a nice journey to go through. However we know that what comes out of it will be something so special to us.
Question is: Have you been serving as a dim light for the Lord in the house, reluctant in many things, or have you been a bright light that shines for the Lord as you serve the family?Have your heart also been only a tidy house, not fully clean, or have it always been tidy and clean?
Me blogged @ | 12:51 AM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
.: adeline :.
hey dearrsssssssssss...
hahass.. i've got so many dearrssss.. hahas.. ((: guess many of your might have heard from ah ma wad happened to me and my dad.
for those of u who dont know.. i'll type it here.. (;
last week.. i wanted to invite my family down to church.. since it was the week of: celebrating the family. so i decided to pluck up the courage to ask them along. especially my dad. for most of you who have heard me talk about how my dad doesn't like christianity, not even going to church, will be able to understand how difficult it is for me to open my mouth and ask. and so i decided to tell them wad activities expo would have. and i emphasised a lot on the sentence: PASTOR IS GOING TO SHARE ABOUT FAMILY! ((:
i really hoped and pray dat by saying all these, maybe there would be a chance of my dad going. he however did not answer. den on sunday, i asked again. and dis time his answer was different. dis was how the conversation goes:
ade--->adeline dad---> my dad
ade: papa.. wanna come my church? dad: no. ade: why? today pastor gonna talk about family. its a topic which i believe will interest u! (at dis point, i was trying hard not to sound so forceful. and tried hard to smile) dad: i go there also no use. we got different views. ade: how would u know if u never go??? (i was getting angry alredy. so was my dad) dad: i dont wan2 go there and get angry. i dont wan2 blow my top. ade: u never go how u ever know? just like u never drink coke how u know it tastes nice.. (he interrupted) dad: i dont need people to talk to me! i believe in myself to do my own things!!!! why should i go listen to someone talk when u dont even listen to me?!?! ade: den why ahma(my grandma) u listen? dad: not dat i believe all the buddhist stuff! i dont believe in anything! only myself!!! ade: den why ahma ask u go temple, u stil go even when u nvr believe? den i ask u go church, u dont believe, at least go have a look! the reason why i never listen is because we both have different views about things. if u choose to go church, i will listen to u. if not, things will be like dis forever..
the moment i said the last sentence, my dad already walked away.. i really have such overwhelming hatred for my dad! i cant bring myself to forgive him. at that point, i seem to have come to a conclusion. there is no way my dad will ever step into church!!!
i was really feeling very upset. i felt so hurt.
i decided to tell ahma about dis later in the afternoon. and she said some encouraging things.. wan2 see can ask me for hp ((: hehes...
yea lohh.. anyway, hmm... yea.. until now, i really feel dat the hatred for him is getting more and more everyday. its difficult for me. i seem to ignore the things he say to me nowadays.. )): i noe its wrong. but i cant help it. i just sometimes feel dat he's bias. he dotes on my brothers more den me. )):
yea lohh... haiis.
i heard last week's sermon on the net. and it was really touching..
prayer request: really hope dat my heart and spirit will be open to God so dat the light of God's love, grace, mercy and glory will shine in me!!! and thus, dis light will shine through the whole household and my whole family will be saved!!! ((:
thank you my dear family! you guys seem to be like my real family. cos i sometimes feel dat your love me more. and to not be able to have fatherly love is a sad thing. but gladly, got daddy (ee jay) and mummy (julee) to love and care for me!
im commited to dis family! love ya'll!!! have a blessed week! amen!
Me blogged @ | 6:39 PM
Monday, October 02, 2006
.: isAbeL :.
cheRy isAeL
I attended church with my parents since I was very young. When I was 8 years old , my parents stop attending church because my mother just gave birth to my little sister and she needs to take care of her. When I was in secondary 1, FCBC is the second church i have been to. At first I do not felt anything,only enjoying the worship music. I felt that the songs they were worshipping were powerful and meaningful .That touches me. Since then, I have a strong will to worship in FCBC but unfortunately I lost my faith due to secondary schoolmates influence. i stop attending church and choose t hang out with them.After spending time with my schoolmates and neglected my will for GOD, my life changed from good to bad.I get angry and oftend others easily. I don't always listen to others and I will fight for my right even I have done something wrong. I was began to ignore my parents advise and always argue with them. Due to my stuborness my parents and I got heated up and end up scolding each other. I really got so stressed up and don't even want to put up myself at home. To avoid quarrels at home I went to my godmother house to cool down.i started to question myself , how come things ended this way. At that moment, I have sudden strong feeling of remembering GOD which I have neglected for so long. That very night, I started to pray to GOD and asked for forgiveness and mercy. Indeed, GOD is so merciful and I can feel that I am near to GOD again. I felt that slowly,God has taken away my burden. I was so happy and I know GOD has come back to my life again. With the strong faith in GOD again I have decided to worship GOD in FCBC. The very first day of worship I breakdown and cry out to GOD to forgive all my sins. I have also prayed for my parents and asked GOD to touch them again so that my parents will attend church. After weeks later, my mother told me that she has a strong will to attend church, I have strongly encouraged her. Finally, she found a church through friends. Indeed, GOD has anwered my prayers.."PRAISE THE LORD" Since after then, our relationship become better and we were so blessed.My Fcbc friends encouraged to pray everyday for my family and indeed a miracle happened!
yups.
Woh indeed it is amazing how even as you just move in faith and to listen to the promting of the Lord, and even though I could not get any one down then, God brought me down still to meet someone without plan. I know I had been faithful in the small things which He layed upon me, which is to make a constant effort to link up with these people, and invite them down once in a while and hence He blessed me even to be able to meet unintentionally. 
