.: Completed SOL: School of Logistic! :.
Yes! It was definitely a great learning process and I have finally completed my course on my very first SOL! Not School of Leaders, but my very own School of Logistic! Never did I expect it to be so challenging and I was indeed tested much by the Lord through this time.
I went without really expecting or knowing much of what I am needed to do. All I knew was I rushed down to Bukit merah the day before in the mist of the heavy rain to help my dearest Logistic Men do the checking and the next day I am suppose to report earlier to set things up. I went with one focus in mind, to serve the people and to support in any way I can.
Never did I expect myself to fall ill just on the very first night. I was already not too well in school that day and with all the rushing around and trying to get the assignments for students ready before I go for the camp, I guess my body just could not take it anymore. This is definitely the first time I fell sick during an Encounter weekend. The worst was during the second day were not only the fluly nose sets in, the fever also starts to come. I felt so week in the afternoon and so tired. I wanted to pull through but I know I needed to rest. If not I might just not make it through the camp any more. Hence I went back to my room to take a rest. Along that, I was actually still a bit worried about all the admin things needed to attend to.
I knew that while I was lying on the bed, there was one moment where I felt so terrible, my head is just pain and I felt so weak. Then this guide called Pemela came into the room and just asked if I was ok. I thought maybe if I rest a bit more I would be ok, so I just told her I am fine. She touched my forhead and then told me yeh I should rest more. I went back to sleep after she left. The next thing I knew was she came back the room and now with medicine in her hands with even hot water. She actually specially went all the way out to the nearby 7 eleven to buy the medicine for me. Woh! I am so touched and she was like an Angel sent by God. As after taking the medicine and resting a while more, I felt so much better and ready for the "heavy" logistic which I had to face at night. Praise God!
I believe even though my sickness, God allowed me to see the importance of this family and the power when the family comes together and do things as one! I felt so blessed even as I serve through this EW as so many people offered to pray for me, so many came to me to thank me for serving as Log IC and even at the end of the EW, those whom I ministered to came to me to thank me for praying for them! This was also the first time I see my G12 sisters coming together and taking on all the sessions at EW and just easing off the load from Ah Mi. Furthermore, ever session the presense of the Lord was so powerful and many were touched by the Holy Spirit! It is really so wonderful to be able to serve together as a family! In the tehnical aspect, I also did learnt much
, the setting up of those completed equipments. Haha.. not forgetting the wonderful 2 rules of my dearest Log IC: To Obey God and Obey him! Best! However I definitely did learn much from my Bro WaiMum... Never did knew he was really so funny and can say one who can crap much as well!
Me blogged @ | 9:21 PM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
.: The lack of sleep me! :.
Well I think for the first two weeks, I realised I was already feeling tired at work but not as tired as what I experience this week. Maybe it is due to the long hours in school as well as more matters to attend to as well as the accumulated lack of sleep for the past week. This is the very reason I did not post my devotion yersterday. I was really too tired already and spend some time with the Lord and off to bed I went. If you have already realised, I take some time to type and process my thoughts most of the time, hence most of the time I prefer to talk then write. Anyway just thought want to use this time to give thanks once again for the open doors which the Lord place me with through this week. I managed to not only build up greater connection with the ex students in the last chalet which I went, but also since school start till now, I never really did drag myself to school before. Unlike in the pass, I might have. Sleeping everynight pass 12 and getting up every morning before 6am is really no joke! Not easy. Somehow I know there has been a change in my spirit on how I view school and approach, and I know this is definitely not something I did to myself but the God who is so wonderful who changed me. Even the teachers in the staff room also commented that I seem to be more chatty now a day. Haha one also commented on my funky glasses and say I look better in them! Yeh! Anyway this collegue of mine, added me to his msn as he wanted to send me some pic that he took during CCA fair. Then all of a sudden he asked me through msn if I am a christian. I was stun to see his question and asked him how he knew. He said he saw in my blog that I used words like blessed. Even as I converse with him more, I came to realised he is a christian and believes in God, but just chooses to not go to church. Strange I know, but then he say he more of a lonner and all these. Anyway I am not really very close to him as of now, so just pray for more chance to share of the goodness of God's family to him such that he will come down for service soon one day. It is really amazing to just see how God hands move within the school! I perservered on through school this week, have you?Romans 5:3 "Not only so, but we[c] also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. "
Me blogged @ | 11:11 PM
.: Temptation of Jesus :.
Luke4: 4" Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone.' "
Luke 4:8 "Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Worship the Lord your God and serve him only"
Luke 4:12 "Jesus answered, "It says: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test"
These 3 veres are also mentioned in the old testiment as well.
Deut8:3 "He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD."
Deut 6:13 "Fear the LORD your God, serve him only and take your oaths in his name."
Deut 6:16 "Do not test the LORD your God as you did at Massah."
Hence it is amazing how even in the times of Moses where God already started reminding his people of the temptations that Satan can being to us and the addtitude that we should take, just as how Jesus answered Satan when he was tempted by him.
Jesus was tempted in 3 ways:
1) Tempted by miracle: turn stones into bread
2) Tempted to test the word: Throw yourself off the temple
3)Tempted by religion and power: It's all yours, Jesus; just bow down and worship me.
Jesus was tempted in every way we are tempted, exceot for one thing, He did not sin.
Three things which I caught from this passage is that
1) The devils comes when challlenges sets in, but God will overcome the test
2) The devil comes when our focus of worship is on others, but God ask us to only serve Him
3) The devil temps us when we are in need, but God tells us to trust and depend in Him
Personally, the temptations of the devil is so real and each day we have to make our stand in the Lord and be firm, if not we will definitely be prone to be falling into his traps. It was also ow man in the first place sin, due to the temptations of the devil upon Eve!
“Lead us not into temptation,” Jesus taught His disciples to pray. God doesn’t tempt anyone. That’s the devil’s doing. He does test, as He did Abraham. And He’s promised never to test you beyond what you are able to bear, and in Christ you are able to bear much more than you may even think you are able. That’s the “secret” the apostle Paul learned when he wrote, “I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.” In our temptations, we are never alone. Christ is with us, by our side. And He’s the One who was tempted for us and did not sin.
Recently the challenges that I face just seem to have hit me flat to the ground. I can choose to stay there and admit defeat in the hands of SATan, but yet I can also choose to believe that God will overcome, and raise up and use God's hands against the hands of SATan!
Me blogged @ | 11:18 PM
.: My Ex student class chalet! :.
Check out the happening pictures! Anyway it was really a good time of just interacting with them and being there, although I very much would hope to be home resting! Haha!
Me blogged @ | 10:16 PM
.: Dont Play Play.. But Pray Pray :.
Was caught by this statement which Ps Eugene made at today's sermon, hence thought was a good headline to post on the blog. Haha...
It is really so true that we really need to P.U.S.H = Pray Until Something Happens!
Once again even as we want to move into a Year Of Victory, I can see the plans of Mr SATan just coming in to bring our spirits down and spoil the plans. Prayer is the only way to fight this in the spiritual arena and I am so much more convicted to buck up in my prayer life even through this season of going deep.
Each time I want to read the word, I would be already so tired out by the day and this will end of with not much time to be praying. Realised the prayer list just gets longer and longer and I do not wish to tell other to pray but yet I myeslf am not praying. Prayer is indeed the most powerful weapon again the plans of Mr SATan! I believe it also has to be a sincere prayer and this will move the mountains as it moves the hands of God.
Hence want to challenge everyone to keep PUSHing and believe God for the impossible. Fight it out not with what we have or can do, but with the power of prayer! Lets be committed to take extended time to lift up our prayers to the Lord!
Me blogged @ | 12:02 AM
.: Yeah Finally see me here!! :.
Hahaz i actually kind ask to come and update abt the youth camp=)
The youth camp ar... i think i miss out alot=X
On the first day i was late cause i have to bring my father to the hospital to do some check ups..
Then arrived at the camp site at around lunch time.. i rushed down cause i dun wan to miss out too much..
Then bacause i went to the hospital, i did not manage to help them pitch the tent..sob sob..
Then joined my group and play play play... But on that day i also quite sick so never really join all the game..
-----Cutting the crap-----
Finally at nite.. ganna fever...sian... but still got listen to Pastor Adrian=)
Then after everything fever still there.. so my sister ask me to go home.. so went home..
-----Cutting crap agn----
Had been falling ill through out the camp so did not participate in everything...
Then like very bad like tt...
Cause i did not really play my part as a team...sob sob...
k la tt all dunno wat to say liao...
TCs=D
God Bless=)
LaUrInA, KaIyEe
Me blogged @ | 9:08 PM
.: What do we hear? :.
Luke 3:21When all the people were being baptized, Jesus was baptized too. And as he was praying, heaven was opened 22and the Holy Spirit descended on him in bodily form like a dove. And a voice came from heaven: "You are my Son, whom I love; with you I am well pleased."
That is what I want to walk my life as and to hear God telling me : "You are my daughter, whom I love, with you I am well pleased"
Even as I read through this, it made me reflect upon on my own walk, if I were to stand before God today, what would I hear? I want to live my life from now on just to please the Lord.
As I am writing this, I just sense that some of us really have to come back and surrender upon some areas in our lives which we know are not pleasing to the Lord. And with that we need to seek the forgiveness of the Lord. This was exactly what God showed us during my G12 meeting through Pastor YC. Let us not wait any longer and let us be willing to allow the baptizm of the Holy Spirit to convict our hearts!
Me blogged @ | 12:26 AM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
.: Youth Camp Powerhouse 2007 :.
This is the second time going for youth camp. Actually I dun really feel like going for this camp, because it was rainning heavily and feel very sleep that morning. But in the end I still went down and I did not regret to come to this camp.On that day God really showed me unity in our spiritual family when we were walking in the rain. While I am walking I started to pray: God I can see that we all are very tired, i ask that you let us walk in your spirit and not walk only by our physical strength. After I prayed i started to play with the rain. I think you all should know that I love to play with the rain.Pastor Adrian (Ah gong) actually mentioned during his session, when we pray, our spirit will move and also God's spirit. Through Zech 4:6, God speaks to me, he want me to know that we cant do everything with our physical strength but with the holy spirit.
On the sec day morning, we had an activity called 7000 challenge. It covers the sky, land and sea. First we went for the sky challenge. We are called to climb the stairs and it was 14 floor and my group went up and down the stairs like 8 times and there was about 11 people. In the end we climb a total of 1050 times.
Through all these are challenging, God has showed me that everyone is important and everyone is part of Jesus Christ body. In this camp I really learnt a lot and we experience the Spirit of the Lordsm to have a forgiveing heart, a simple heart and to encounter the cross!
LOVE CHERLY ISABEL
Me blogged @ | 11:30 PM
.: My G12 :.
I am not sure about you, but I always look forward to going for my G12 session. I always am so blessed leaving from the session, be it a simple girls sharing, to listening to Ah Pa YC sharing his heart! Once again as we came together today, I am just so thankful for this wonderful family. I realised I am leaning to really appreciate all the little things that God blesses along the way and one of them is the family and every individual so uniquely placed together.
Even as I stood there during worship, especially for the past few times where we had a longer time to worship, I could feel the presence of the Lord and know that He was in our mist. It was something I believe as a body we have not experience for long during cell time. The Lord also ministered to many who just needed a refreshment of the Holy Spirit. We came as a body kneeing before the Lord to surrender all the desires of our hearts and to come before the Lord as well recognising we are all yet but sinners and asking for the forgivness of the Lord.
Beyond just the wonderful worship we have, even as I just sat there for G12, and as I look across every one of my brothers and sisters, I am just so touched to have this opportunity once again to be where I am now. Even the very presence of Baby Graicer never fails to bring Joy in the mist of the serious stuff we talk about during G12 at times. Seeing Ah Pa and Ah Mi working together and really running as a family, then when we all gather as their children, with babies in our mist, it is really such a heartwarming sight. It further made me realise there is going to be so much dynamics and power when a couple comes together and work in the ministry! Yeh I also want to be like them in future, running my G12 with my husband and his disciple, and see my disciples growing up and also establishing thier own family, with babies around! (starting to dream already. haha!)
I am starting to see the family in my not so new family, and just by appreciating the little things that God will bless me along the way and the things God speak to my heart all these while. I am once again so grateful to my Lord and so thankful to be part of this BIG family.
Hence so how have this family been and mean to each one of you? Think about it!
Me blogged @ | 12:02 AM
.: Fruit of repentance: Luke 3 :.
John went ahead to preach of the good news of the coming of the Lord to many out there, even before Jesus himself came.
Luke 3:3He went into all the country around the Jordan, preaching a baptism of repentance for the forgiveness of sins.
It was just a simple statement and it reminded me once again that we need to constantly come to the cross in repentance and asking for the forgiveness of sins. All men fall short of the glory of God. Although our lives have been santified daily and we keep to the words of the Lord, however we cant deny that we can just fall into sin any time. Hence we need to constantly come to the Lord with that spirit, that in any way we want to seek God's forgiveness.
Luke 3: 8 Produce fruit in keeping with repentance.
Luke:9 The axe is already at the root of the trees, and every tree that does not produce good fruit will be cut down and thrown into the fire."
Lets even hold guard of the fruits that we produce of the tree in our life and that we want to come cna produce fruits that are good and trees that will produce good fruits!
Me blogged @ | 12:13 AM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
.: Mid week... :.
Went down with Si Jia for the church wide prayer meet today. Since initially wanted to meet some of you all, but most cant make it. Furthermore Si Jia also have not been to such a event, hence thought it would be good opportunity to let her take a look. Anyway it was a blessed time and so wonderful to come and pray for the family as a body. I remember our tribe used to go down almost every month for the prayer meet in the past. Being back there again definitely brings back memories.
Anyway the session was once again recapping what Pastor shared on sun, but we spent more time praying for the individual areas. The 3 areas are
1. Going deep in Character: Willingness
2. Looking far in Commitment: Rooted in the Vision
3. Asking Big: God’s destinyEven as Pastor Bellchin lead us in prayer through each of this section, one thing which caught me was she mentioned even through this year, as we want to grow more like Christ, we want to grow in the fruits of the spirit. She mentioned that it is not only God who will mold us in these areas, but He will also use the family to mold us, teach us, show us these areas of the fruits of the spirit. I believe situations will come along the way which will put to test these areas and hence God uses them to develop us in our character.
Even as we were praying for the last section on asking big for God in His destiny for us, Pastor promted us to move out to do something which God have already spoken and told us to do but we are still waiting. This will be starting some sort of a prayer group in my Sec School starting with the other 3 FCBC teachers who God has blessed the school with. It was so timely as well as I set next to Laural today in assembly, and we started chatting more on church matters, which I rarely do last year, even just casual talk with her. Many thoughts were exchanged and I believe God is building our relationship up. Furthermore I am starting to know more staff beside those in my workroom and also taking more steps to go out to interact with them. I mean I know this is definitely not of me, as I really hesitated much last year, and found it rather difficult to interact with the teachers. I believe it was this change in spirit and also wanting to be Pastor of my school, which just gave me that inner motivation to move out of my comfort area to talk with more teachers.
Even among the students, there was more confidence in interacting with them and also greater sensitivity in when I should talk further on God with them. And amazingly, just yesterday, as I had to stay back to watch over the vollyball team till they finish their training at 6pm, this girl who came once to church during the miracle catch came up and asked me if she can talk with me about church stuff. Off course my first reaction was amazed! This is what it means by God will just send people to you. I cleared some doubts she had and encouraged her to join us this Sunday at service and she readily agreed. And to think about it, I actually was very tired and knowing I had to stay behind did not make things better in anyway. But as I obediently stayed behind, God just blessed.
There are more thanksgiving to share, but I realized as I continue to just go deep in the Lord, and trusting in Him, He is just moving and blessing me. Amazing! Therefore the first thing I should do tomorrow when I return back to school is to try to bring up the idea of starting a mini prayer group with the other FCBC members and then to believe God for a breakout in the school!
Lets really be desiring for the Holy Spirit! Like I shared before I am really not living on my own now, I want to be living in the supernatural! Just moving by the spirit in every area of my life!
Me blogged @ | 11:18 PM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
.: Kai Yee Baptizm! :.
I’m actually quite lucky as I come to know Jesus when I was P6-12years old. But before that, in year 2002,when I was nine, my mother passed away. From then on, everything changed. My dad suffered from a slight depression and could not work or support the family anymore. Therefore, my sister has to go out and work to support the whole family. My brother had just started his poly and I’m only in primary school then. And I have to learn to be independent to look after my father as I’m the only one at home in the day. It is really a great challenge for me as I’m only nine years old at that time and knew nothing much. But lucky for the first two years, I had the help of the maid. By the time I’m P5-11years old, I no longer had a maid.
I also have to bring my dad to hospital almost every month, and tolerate with all his nonsense. Above that, I also had to try to focus on my studies. Because of this, my result in my study drop a lot and it’s very critical as I’m already P5 then and the following year would be my PSLE. Luckily when I was in P6, my sister decided to send my dad to a nursing home unwillingly so that I could concentrate in my study.
At that time when I was primary Six, my sister already knew the Lord and has been attending FCBC for about 1 month. Then one day, my sister told me about Jesus but I did not believe immediately as I have been worshipping all kinds of Gods since I was born and could not really accept it. However I still when along with her to church, as I don’t want to be alone at home. I wanted to see if God is real, hence just a few minutes before my math prelim paper I tried praying and I told Jesus that I want to finish the paper on the spot. Guess what?! I finish the math paper two minutes before the time is up. From that moment onwards, I told myself that I would accept Jesus no matter what during the next service. Soon enough the time finally arrived but just before raise up my hand something struck me. “lf I raise up my hand, I won’t be able to pray to my mother again. But if don’t, I will break my promise to God.” I thought. I’m caught between the devil and the deep blue sea. In the end, I did not rise up my hand but I rush to the consolidation room after much persuasion from my spiritual sister and aunts.
From then on, my life changed. I began to built up my faith in God, learn more about Him and even talk to my friend about him. And now, I have completed PE, SOL1 and waiting to go to SOL2. I used to be very introvert and don’t normally talk much to people. I would prefer to stay at home and do my own things. However after knowing God and the family He has given to me, I am no longer a “loner” but one who talks more and life is so much happier for me. I also learn to love my father more and also understand and appreciate what he is going through. One of my spiritual Aunty gave me tuition when she knows how bad my result is when I’m having my PSLE in a few months time. In the end, I did quite well in my PSLE and I am now in the express stream. Most importantly, I must say that I’ m blessed with the spiritual family. They are the only people whom I can talk to and seek good advice. Now, my dad had recovered quite a lot and do not have to go hospital as much as last time. As for my brother, he is going to finish his poly soon.
Praise the Lord for everything!
Me blogged @ | 9:51 PM
.: Christmas Party! :.
Realised it has already been way after Christmas and only now are the photos up. So sorry for the delay!
Anyway this is the first time we had a small family setting like celebration. It definitely have a heartwarming feeling and a wonderful moment just to come and spent family time together! Really enjoyed myself, especially the crazy games that Alvin came up with!
Indeed christmas is about us! God thank you so much! I also want to thank each an everyone of you for making this family something so special to me!
Me blogged @ | 8:59 PM
.: Wait --> Trust ---> Believe and be thankful :.
Luke 1:42 "Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the child you will bear!
Luke 1:45Blessed is she who has believed that what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished!"Indeed it was the simple believe even when the angel revealed and explained to Mary and hence she was greatly blessed and whatever the Lord had said will be accomplished. Mary not only believed and was blessed, she also constantly gave thanks and speak of the goodness and greatness of the Lord.
Just so timely to what Pastor mentioned in one of the 3 things we need to be always doing this year, is to
Always be thankful!
The song by Mary talkes about How Great God has been and how He will reveal His plans to those who humbly seek Him and His Mercy extends to those who fear Him.
Even as I embark into this year, I not only want to make Thanksgiving a daily part of my life, but I also want to let word of encouragement and affirmation be always on my lips as well. I want to wait upon the Lord, to trust in Him and to believe in what He has to be accomplished such that all will call me Blessed
Luke: 48 for he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant. From now on all generations will call me blessed Me blogged @ | 11:30 PM
.: Cell Advance 2006 :.
Year Of Victory!
Go Deep.. Look Far.. Ask Big
It was definitely a great time of coming together, seeking the Lord and preparing ourselves for the coming year. So blessed to be able to have it done with Kaiyun, Dy and Ej's people for I believe they added on to the dynamics of the entire cell advance. This was definitely my first time having to share a message to such a big group as well as to share my testimony for the first time to so many people. Guess I was definitely a little nervous during the sharing, and maybe still a little emotional over sharing of my testimony, since it is my first time to such a large group. However I knew it was definitely a break through personally for me, especially in this area as I always believe when I am able to share it in the open, it means I have more or less been healed and released from what I used to be in. Praise God! However as I evaluated on my sharing, there is still much area for me to improve on as well as to learn.
I believe everyone who came had a great time, good family time of just bonding together and understaning each other better! Do follow through what you all have learnt, form being a blessing to others to learning how to hear form God and to release words for others. I think it really is important not only to know, but to live it out. Walk the talk! Lets really put what we have experienced and learnt not only in the cell advance, but in the youth camp as well, and let them of a constant reminder for us to move us in victory in this coming year.
Me blogged @ | 9:14 PM
.: Be obedient when the Lord shows :.
Luke 1: 18Zechariah asked the angel, "How can I be sure of this? I am an old man and my wife is well along in years." Luke 1: 34"How will this be," Mary asked the angel, "since I am a virgin?"Even as I continue to meditate upon Luke 1, the response of Zechariah and Mary caught my attention. If you realised when the angel of the Lord told them what God has planned for them, there was uncertainty and doubt in their hearts, and hence it brought them to question the angel if it is going to be possible.
They have allowed thier rational mind to come in to block their faith as well as what God really can do. Even as I read through, I realised I am guilty of that at times and indeed if we are walking by faith every day, and if it was really a word or vision that the Lord showed to us, however impossible it may seem, we should just receive and recognised that it is the Lord who will be giving and not you. Move in faith and obedience and trust in the Lord for the impossible to happen.
Luke1: 19The angel answered, "I am Gabriel. I stand in the presence of God, and I have been sent to speak to you and to tell you this good news. 20And now you will be silent and not able to speak until the day this happens, because you did not believe my words, which will come true at their proper time."Due to the lack of faith to believe in what the angel said, hence Zechariah was forbidden to speak till the word of the Lord has come to pass. Hence similar to this, because of our lack of faith, God might just with hold certain things He wants to give us, till the proper time, but uses this time to teach us and mold us to be ready to embrace the matter.
Really amazing how God works and the human mind can never really fully understand what He has for us. If not we can be God already! Haha.. pray that this short sharing blesses your heart!
LETS GO DEEP IN THE LORD THIS SEASON!
Me blogged @ | 11:53 PM
Saturday, January 06, 2007
breakout party; retroseque '07!
im not too late i hope :D
this year's countdown party was a blast! i got to spend the last min of 2006 & first min of 2007 with my spritual family, praise God. also, i was given the opportunity to represent the cluster with dan as retro personalities.
aww i dont know wht else to say haha, so thts all fr the retro mania i guess.
p/s: loves, i resized all these pictures & i have much more with me. msg me if you want them (:
huiyu's the man HAHA! Me blogged @ | 10:59 PM
.: youth camp reflection :.
yeah! hahas.
thank God for all His blessings,
especially during Christmas and the coming of 2007!
yups. hehes.
woah!
yes I know it’s been long ever since I last blog.
hahas. really LONG okiies!
my last post was like around october’06 can?
alemaks.
I apologise for this ya?
firstly was because of my o’levels and not long after, my bro’s computer spoilt!
and guess what?
his computer is not okiies yet!
I’m now using my dad’s computer.
he’s out so, I pleaded my mum to let me use it.
hohohos! Thank God! =))
okiies. enough of my nonsense.
wanna post up my thoughts for youth camp and cell advance.
will do it separately just in case, you all read until very sian.
Cos, the post is gone be LONG!
so, better be prepared! muahahahahas;))
yups.
the first session in the afternoon during youth camp didn’t really catch me.
however, the second and the third sessions, yes.
hahas.
session 2: RESTORING OUR HEARTS
-Ezekiel 36:26 =>this tells us that God wants to restore our hearts by giving us a new heart.
Pastor Adrian also shared with us the 3 conditions of our hearts,
simple, tender and a pure and undivided heart.
this was the part that really caught me. yups.
cos’ I belongs to the category that needs to restore a tender heart!
hahas.
Pastor Adrian said that a tender heart = opposite of a harden heart.
yups yups.
a harden heart can be caused by hurts, rejections, no simple faith etc.
for me, it’s caused by hurts. yups.for those who dunno Karen, she is a very close sister to my heart in church.
she had actually left church for some, I would say, nonsensical reasons?
yups.it really breaks my heart to see her leaving the church.
after leaving us, she actually blocked all of us in msn.
I sms her and dropped her a message in friendster but there’s not even a reply from her. this hurts me even more.
I went to her house on her birthday to pass her her birthday present and card and asked her about her life or so. what breaks my heart even more was when she refused to give me her new hp number when I asked her!
yupyups. all these things that she did(not replying sms etc) hurts me a lot.
I got very emotional whenever people said about Karen at first. later, I told myself that I must let go and let God handle this matter and not think about it anymore. so I control myself, partly also because i dun want mama to worry me.everything was okiies until 2weeks or so before the youth camp, God prompted to me that I hate someone. I prayed and asked God to show me the person. no answer. then I took out my hp and looked up the contacts that I have and asked God to show me. I scrolled and scrolled and scrolled until Karen’s name, I broke out down and cried, for no reason.i just started crying like nobody business.
the answer was clear. It was Karen. I continued to pray to God and He brought me back to the past events and showed me how harden my heart was in this area. I claimed to let God do the matter and believe in Him that he will bring Karen backbut my heart didn’t. thus, He could not enter to heal this wound as my door was closed. And unknowingly, those hurts became hatred. as in i hated her for causing hurts to me.yups. hahas. so during youth camp, I cried and repent before God and asked Him to restore my heart, tender heart in fact. I also prayed to God to take away all unforgiveness that I have and give me a forgiving heart as He has. yupyups. then mama prayed for me and I was slain lors.
hahas. yupsyups. kinda overwhelmed by the Holy Spirit.
for now, I’m really believing in God and leaving this matter to Him for I know that He can handle. to be frank, there’s still a little hurts or so in my heart now but I believe everything will be okiies soon! healing of wounds in heart takes time eh? hehes. yupyups
it will soon be OVER! hohohohos.
jessica=))
Me blogged @ | 8:12 PM
.: Waiting upon the Lord; Luke 1:1-38 :.
"Do not be afraid, Zechariah; your prayer has been heard. Your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son, and you are to give him the name John. 14He will be a joy and delight to you, and many will rejoice because of his birth, 15for he will be great in the sight of the Lord. He is never to take wine or other fermented drink, and he will be filled with the Holy Spirit even from birth.[b] 16Many of the people of Israel will he bring back to the Lord their God. 17And he will go on before the Lord, in the spirit and power of Elijah, to turn the hearts of the fathers to their children and the disobedient to the wisdom of the righteous—to make ready a people prepared for the Lord." (luke1:13-17)
Both Zechariah and Elizabeth were well advance in age and Elizaberth was barren for years, however at the chosen time, God not only blessed them with John the bapthist, a men after God's heart, but one who is also filled with the Holy Spirt from birth and one who will turn the hearts of the father to their children and the disobedient to the wisdom of the righteous.
Mary, mother of Jesus, was also told that she will also be giving birth to the son of God as she has found favour with the Lord. Realising that she was a virgin, she wondered how can that be possible. However the angel told her that it will be by the power of the Holy spirit and nothing is impossible with the Lord.
36Even Elizabeth your relative is going to have a child in her old age, and she who was said to be barren is in her sixth month. 37For nothing is impossible with God." (Luke 1:36)
It is indeed amazing how God speaks at times to me. I know this is defintely a word from the Lord for me to start of this year. Even as I entered into the new year, so much has been planned and talked about for the Year of Victory as well as setting aside the first part of the year to going deep in the Lord, however I felt that I have yet to settle down and be ready to embrace the new year. Maybe like what Joadine say, still leaving in 2006. Haha...
I knew I needed to find time with the Lord and with school starting, it did not really help since I had so many things to plan and look at. It was during the Wed SP 1728 meeting where I knew I heard God telling me clearly to WAIT UPON HIM. Even as I moved over to the new year, there has been some matters on my mind which I have been seeking the Lord on and wanted to hear something form the Lord. Hence when I heard Him saying Wait, I was a bit unsure what it all really meant. However I took home that word, knowing I needed to meditate on it, but I did not really had the time once again.
After reading through what Ah Pa YC wrote, I was really inspired to seat down and really give up time to read the word and it was also a reminder of the follow through on what I had planned before on going deep in the Lord. I started off with Luke and indeed it was a re affirmation of what God wanted to show me. How Zechariah and Elizabeth waited upon the Lord for a child, which was similar to Abraham and Sarah, was something which God hourned and blessed greatly in return. Even as I read my usual dose of daily bread issue yesterday, it also speaks about waiting upon the Lord. Then when I was at my G12 meeting, the song Let's take time also speaks about waiting upon the Lord and that unless the Lord builds the house, the labourers labour in vain.Even before my G12, had cell group and actually I did not have anything really concreat to share, just thought will share on what I read through Luke. But even as I was sharing, I realised how everything just fall in place on what God wanted to tell me. Adele also released a word and it was from Luke 1 as well and it speaks about something which I also would be sharing in my following post.
WOH! As I stood there at G12 during worship, tears just kept flowing down my eyes as I knew I cant run away this time and that it was God trying to tell me to Wait upon Him. Part of going deep with the Lord really is about waiting upon the Lord and really trusting upon Him that as we wait and seek Him, He will bless abundantly. It also reminded me that nothing is impossible with God. Even as we proceed to the Year of Victory, we need to renounce all negative thoughts and idea that we can never draw deep in the Lord.
More to come on this sharing as I continue to mediate upon the Lord! Me blogged @ | 10:26 AM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
.: MY daily Devotion coming up! :.
Even as we move into a year of Going Deep with the Lord, I know one of our goals is to be able to blog weekly. I want to be committed to that and also am inspired by my Ah Pa YC, even when he is so busy with definitely much more things to handle then all of us, yet he is making the commitment to God to blog his devotion every day. If my Ah Pa can, so can I, and I would want to challenge myself to that. In this way, it is also a form of accountability and for you all to check that I am reading God's word daily and immersing in His presense each day! I will walk the talk and hope that each one of you will follow. This semester the workload in sch for me is definitely much more, as more teaching classes are given to me and this means a greater responsibility. I just want to live that supernatural life just by God moving, for I believe I will be able to find time to seek Him and His word even in the mist of all the work! Lets move into this year Victorious in Christ and start by really being committed to Going deep with the Lord! Lets all increase our prayer and word time and blog them down for accountibility!
Me blogged @ | 11:52 PM
, the setting up of those completed equipments. Haha.. not forgetting the wonderful 2 rules of my dearest Log IC: To Obey God and Obey him! Best! 
